Donuts and Catch Up..

haha.. doesn't that sound like donuts and ketchup?  ;)

So as you can probably guess, I succumbed to donuts today.. and I say that in plural because I am an idiot.. plain and simple.. I went to work and was a little hungry.. I went to Jimmy John's for my client and what's right next to it?!  Krispy Kreme.. and I had the intention of getting ONLY a glazed donut.. I was willing to cop to eating A donut.. but then the little ones looked good.. so I changed my order..... or so I thought.. I get out the door, and realize that I got the donut AND the donut holes.. ugh!  and my fatty brain of course is like "just eat them all.. you're going to the gym later.. you'll burn it off.."  

That's something I need to stop telling myself, "you can eat this CRAP, you're going to the gym later".. and I know it's going to be a daily challenge.. the only victory I count in this day is that I didn't talk myself out of going to the gym.. all bc of those damn donut holes.. but I'm still disappointed with myself.. No more Krispy Kreme (didn't I say that last time?).. In general, I ate a lot of food today, compared to yesterday.. I ate a big(ger) breakfast, which I won't be doing again..and then the donuts..  and sadly I'm hungry right now.. but I told myself that I'm supposed to go to bed a little hungry.. 

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I went to the gym, like I said before.. and I was excited to get on the treadmill.. I'm sad to say I couldn't push myself through a 5k.. but I did get 2 miles ran in 25 minutes.. I'll consider that a victory.. especially since I haven't ran in 6 days.. tomorrow morning, before I go to my friends house, I plan to run for 10 minutes outside.. this way I won't be so shocked by the crappy weather on Saturday..

I got a reminder email for Saturday.. I'm getting super excited.. I can't wait!  This 5k, no matter if I run it or walk it, will be a success.. :)

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OH!  Forgot the catch up part.. I somehow missed last week's Biggest Loser.. gotta love technology.. you depend on it, and it always lets ya down.. ;)  BUT, I am watching this past episode.. and I am definitely gonna go find last weeks after this one.. lol

Low Carb No More..

This one is a little allover the place.. so bear with me.. lol

After staying under my calories yesterday, I looked again at my breakdown of calories.. I went from a low carb diet to a diet FULL of carbs.. How in the world did I live on a low-carb diet?!  I ate over 200 grams of carbs yesterday.. and today I have already eaten 80 grams.. what?!

Today is my "d-day".. I hope my ankle withstands my run later.. I'm scared it won't.. But I'm hopeful.. :)

I'm looking into the PB2 that Vegan Chick Pea had told me about..  It's got less fat and calories than regular peanut butter.. But you have to order it in a 4 pk, and I don't have the money to get it until next week (it's like 15 for a 4 pk).. I hope it tastes edible (I'm okay with it tasting different).. lol..

Anyone ever had a deep tissue massage?  They hurt a little, but usually in a good way.. and my massage last week was just that.. and I've got the bruises to prove it.. ugh!  I've noticed bruises in the weirdest places, like on the side of my thigh, the middle of my calf, on the top of my wrist.. and I can only explain them with the massage.. Honestly, as good as if felt, I prolly will never get a deep tissue one again.. lol

Calling It A Day..

It's 10pm.. and after trying to get somewhat close to my 2000 calories, I'm calling it a day at 1893.. I cannot imagine eating another damn thing.. lol.. Wanna see all that I ate?  Well, if ya don't, scroll down.. :)

1 medium banana

1 chocolate & oats high fiber bar

1 CB biscuit

5 CB grilled chicken tenders

1 cup corn

1 serving CB hashbrown casserole

1 serving CB summer veggie medley

1/2 wild salmon filet

1/8 cup of 1% milk (for my tea)

2 clementines

1 serving goldfish crackers

1 Light & Fit blueberry yogurt

1 pack of Swiss Cake Rolls

4 Lightly Salted rice cakes

SEE?!  That's a SHIT TON of food!  and the last three things, I had to make myself eat.. lol.. but I looked up the ideal percentages to eat, and I came pretty close.. I was worried I was eating too many carbs but while it's on the high side of the scale, it's not above..  

Carbs: 56%

Protein: 19%

Fat: 25%

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I went to the gym today.. I say it that way because I REALLY wanted to talk myself out of it.. but I didn't allow myself to get out of it.. yay me.. :)  I did 25 minutes on the elliptical (which I'm not a fan of anymore) and then did 35 minutes of Zumba.. my ankle started to twinge a little, so I left before it got any worse.. I've noticed my enthusiasm for Zumba has really been lacking recently.. I honestly don't have any excitement towards Zumba anymore.. I used to love it.. and I will prolly use the Zumba Wii game, but I honestly don't think I'll be going to any more classes for now..

I'm definitely raring to go running.. and I can honestly say that I miss it.. so hopefully tomorrow I can try running tomorrow and have good news to report back.. :)  I know there was something else to write about, but I am just too tired right now.. TTFN..

Getting To Know You.. or Me!

Age: 27
Bed Size: Full
Chore You Hate: Mowing the lawn
Dogs: unfortunately, no
Essential Start of Your Day: taking my ADHD and anxiety meds 
Favorite Color: Pink
Gold or Silver: Silver
Height: 5'10"
Instruments I Play: None now (I used to play the flute and clarinet)
Job Title: Home Health Aide
Kids: None
Live: Southern Indiana
Mom's Name: Shelley
Nicknames: Princess, Baby
Overnight Hospital Stays: Only one, to my knowledge.. for my cleft lip surgery
Pet Peeve: people that blow cigarette smoke into non-smokers faces
Right or Left Handed: Right
Siblings: One younger brother
Time You Wake Up: I'm usually up daily by 8am.. when I'm off work, I try to sleep til 10am
Underwear: most of the time, i wear 'cheeky' pairs.. no matter what, they come from Victorias Secret
Veggie You Dislike: spinach or brussel sprouts
What Makes You Run Late: my love of sleep and TRAFFIC!  grr
X-Rays You Have Had: ummmm.. ankle, back, (more than likely) face
Yummy Food You Make: chicken with cheese and peppers
Zoo Animal You Like Best: penguin

So Far, So Good..

Well, today is Day 1.. Day 1 of counting calories, that is.. and so far, so good..

I divided up the Goldfish crackers (which I LOVE!) into baggies of 30g, which is 140 calories.. and that is enough of them to curb my salty/crunchy craving..

My trip to Cracker Barrel was interesting.. I tried looking online for calorie values of certain things.. and came up EMPTY!  Isn't it against some law not to have calorie values available?  I figured a place as popular as Cracker Barrel would have this handy.. was I wrong or what?!  lol

So I went with the knowledge that veggies (well duh) were good and fried stuff was bad (another duh).. and I did pretty well, I think..  I got the grilled chicken tenders (without my normal ranch dunking sauce), with corn (forgot they had green beans), their new summer veggie medley (TOTALLY yummy!), and hashbrown casserole.. the last one could have been 1000 calories and I'd still have ate it.. not really, but I usually get it no matter what.. lol.. I ate 1 biscuit (and for me, that's saying a lot).. I am calling this trip out a SUCCESS!  and I was surprisingly full for a long time afterwards.. usually I still THINK I'm hungry an hour after eating there.. but not today..  :)

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Today's trip to the gym is in the air right now.. We're supposed to be getting REALLY bad weather around here in the next few hours.. if it's still bad by 6pm, I'm going straight home.. and I'm not sure if I WANT to go to the gym.. I'm afraid that I won't be able to resist running on the treadmill, which I'm going to try tomorrow.. But I want to give my ankle one more day to "rest"..

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So the calorie counting thing is still confusing to me.. For me to lose 1 pound a week, do I really get 2300 (almost put a $ in front of it.. lol) calories if I am somewhat active?!  I've only eaten 1040 calories as of now, and I can't imagine trying to eat another 1300 calories in the next 6 hours.. I can honestly say it would take some effort to eat that much..  So I'm sticking with the 2000 calories for now, and I'll re-evaluate in a few weeks.. I realize this is going to be a change, and it might not be easy.. but life isn't easy (I need to realize this daily.. lol) and I need to give my body a chance to adjust..

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Yesterday I checked the weather forecast for Saturday and I saw that it's supposed to have a high of 45 degrees up in Bloomington.. and a 60% chance of rain.. ugh!  Guess I'll get to try out that cold weather gear that I got for Christmas before next year.. :)  I don't care if it's snowing (well, ya know what I mean), I am going to do this 5k.. I want to get that first one under my belt.. 

Let's Do This..

Alright, so I started my day off with a trip to the grocery store.. not the brightest idea, since I was hungry, but I think I did pretty good.. and I was seriously disappointed by how many calories things were..  I kept thinking of calories in terms of dollars.. I have $2000 a day to spend on food.. Is it really worth saving $40?  HELL YES!  lol..

Is it just me, or are Lightly Salted Rice Cakes the best thing EVER?!  I love them!  They are my potato chips.. two of them last me just as long and have less calories.. :)   And I couldn't resist getting more clementines (thanks to everyone's praise of them, I have jumped on the cutie bandwagon.. hehe).. 

I made sure to get some oatmeal to eat on days like today, when I don't work until the afternoon.. On the days that I do work in the mornings, I got the high fiber bars and fruit.. Like today's breakfast was only 250 calories (because I plan to eat a bigger lunch at Cracker Barrel), and I ate one of the bars and a banana..  Did I mention that I didn't even make it out of the parking lot before breaking open my banana.. lol

I'm off to go look at Cracker Barrel's menu to see what is worth giving up my "money" for.. :)

Today= BIG FAIL!

Okay, so today, as per the title, sucked ASS!  I woke up, and chillaxed too long this morning.. so I was SOL (shit outta luck, for those who don't know what that means) for breakfast.. had to be at work at 9am for a new client.. and what did I eat while I was there?  Reese's Peices.. one of those $1 boxes.. ugh!

Then I ate Mike 'n Ike's while at my normal clients house.. double ugh!  So by the time I got home, I prolly have eaten 1200 calories of plain junk.. :(

But it stopped there.. I have eaten 4 medium chicken tenders since getting home.. and I'm making a shopping list for Friday.. because I'm out of the important stuff, fruits and veggies..  That's not good.. I hope today is just a fluke (as I've been having a bad day).. but that's not an excuse.. it's just a fact.. 

I have been told that I am too honest.. and most of the time I don't think that's a bad thing.. Well, this is MY blog.. so I'm planning to air whatever I want on here..  I haven't talked to Chris in 3 days.. and after thinking about some stuff, I'm done.. I'm not sure what's going on, but at this point, I just don't care anymore.. So, no more Chris.. so, all you guys out there reading this, I'm AVAILABLE!!  lol

So, on the way home from work, I decided to finally look up fatsecret.com and myfitnesspal.com.. after looking at both of them, I've decided to go with fatsecret.com for now.. I signed up and was shocked when it said how many calories I should be eating a day.. 2600!  WHAT?!  That sounds like WAY too much to me.. So I'm gonna see if I can stay below 2000, and if I find I'm starving by the end of the day, I'll figure out how many to add.. 

Well, I'm off to go read some blogs.. :)