Who Is This For?

Well, I'm starting to wonder where my life is going.. and it isn't a pretty picture, so to speak.. I'm reading this book, "A Slice of Heaven" by Sherryl Woods.. The part that is inspiring this entry is where she's just had sex with her ex husband and is worried that he finds her fat, bc she thinks she is.. and high-tails it to the gym and finds a personal trainer.. then she says that she's doing it bc of her ex.. the trainer says that he'd rather she did it for herself.. and here's where I'm "inspired": she says that if she did it for herself, she'd have never came to the gym that day..

My motivation for this SHOULD be me.. but at this point, honestly, I don't think I'm worth the effort.. wait, before you send the outpour of love, hear me out.. Most of this journey has been half-assed.. and I'm sure you all agree.. and I've gained 2 more lbs this past week.. I need to look at losing weight as a job, aka something that I can't afford to call in to or miss.. even if it's just for strength training at my house.. I need to lose weight for the guy who will come into my life someday.. and will love the packaging as much as i do (bc right now, I hate my packaging)..

We all have motivation.. and some of you aren't doing this primarily for yourself.. maybe for your health, your kids, whatever.. and I don't think this makes us any different than people doing it for themselves.. we may need more therapy, but who doesn't need it anyways.. lol

btw, i am writing this entry from my new Droid 2.. YAY! So I apologize for any issues with spelling/spacing.. lol

On A Happier Note..

I have ordered myself a new phone.. thank goodness!  It's the new Droid 2.. and I'm so excited to get all the apps that I have seen on the Verizon Wireless website.. :)

I'm wondering which Calorie Counter app is the best for me.. so anyone that has an iPhone or a Droid (or any other kind of app-friendly phone), please let me know what you think of your apps.. and which ones you would recommend.. :)