Quick post.. then to bed..

Okay, so I said earlier that I had a pic to share.. and I finally have it to show you! First, a little blurb about what went through my head when I saw it.. I was in GreenTree Mall in Clarksville, Indiana.. had to do a little Christmas exchangin.. lol.. on my way to Hallmark, they have a little display for a local dress shop in my home town, and as prom season has (I think) officially started, they have a really cute dress in the display.. then I actually get up to it, and the first thing I thought was WTF?! and the second, which I think is kinda important, is "if it doesn't flippin' fit the manequin, should it really be being sold to teenage girls who already feel the pressure to fit in/be skinny!?"

I mean, seriously.. this dress is super cute, but what size could it possibly be that it doesn't fit the teeny-tiny manequin?! And what kind of message is this going to give the kids that even I want to cover up (and smack) when I see them walking down the street in SNOW wearing tight short shorts??

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Okay, that's my rant for the day.. lol.. Now, I am kinda scared to see what the scale is gonna say in the morning.. While I've tried to make the adjustment to the Points+ plan, I know I didn't do as well as I could have.. but, on the bright side, I could have done worse! :) My day tomorrow is gonna be a little different, as I am going to the 10:15 am meeting (instead of the 12pm one), I am working from 12 to 4 (instead of 2 to 6) and THEN me and Blubeari are going ICE SKATING and then to eat SUSHI!! I'm so excited!! I figure the ice skating will be a decent form of exercise, and the sushi isn't too bad an option for dining out, I think.. :)

And of course, I can't find my camera right now.. so I will post another "accountability picture" tomorrow.. :(

Struggles..

That's what I've been having.. struggles.. but I think it's partly because I lost focus of why I want this.. and at some point, I stopped wanting this bad enough thinking about how badly I want this.. it got lost in the "everday" coming and goings, I think.. but I am not giving up! Today has started out really well.. I am counting EVERY damn point, to the last decimal.. lol

One of my rules that I made was to eat an apple every day (I meant to put morning, but whatever.. lol).. And I have that down, and another one cut up for later.. I am going to go make my smoothie (for a post-workout snack) after I post this.. and I realized last night that I am not have not been PROACTIVE in my weight loss.. I've just been skimming by, allowing myself "this little bite" or "just a little of that".. So this is me, saying NO MORE!!

I watch all these shows, where overweight people lose weight.. and while I wish someone could just show me how to do this (show me what to cook, how to cook it, etc.), I know that isn't going to happen.. and my mom (God bless her) is trying to help me, but it's not her diet. It's MINE! I'm responsible for my portion sizes, I'm responsible for getting my helping before all the butter and sauces get added..

I'll be back later to go over my food intake, my workout, and anything else I can think of.. lol

Inspiriation..

Inspiration comes in many shapes and forms.. for everyone, it's different things.. a pair of pants, someone they see in an ad, someone they want to date/marry.. something is always in the background pushing us to do better for ourselves..

And it's that inspiration that we need to keep in our heads during this food-related holiday weekend.. I'm making sure that my size 12 pair of Jessica Simpson jeans are hanging on my closet door.. those jeans are just one thing that inspires me to do good on this journey.. my lack of bigger jeans is another one.. lol.. 

So what are your plans to make it through this holiday weekend?

My plans for getting through this weekend with a loss is to eat before I go to Thanksgiving.. not a whole meal, just a little something (like a Fiber Plus bar and an apple).. and to only get a smaller plate and fill it more with protein and veggies than carbs..  And then ya got the early morning/late night shopping of Black Friday.. my goal there is to keep myself warm with tea, not hot chocolate, and bring with me my own munchies (not sure yet what, but I'm sure it'll be fruit and easy-to-store stuff) too..

Well, I'm finishing up on my Alex O'Loughlin fest, aka Hawaii Five-O marathon.. and then I'm off to the gym.. :)