Sick, Sick, Sick..

Yes, I realize that it's Tuesday, and I definitely should have done this Sunday night, if not Monday.. lol.. but I have succumbed to the inevitable..  I got sick.. :(

had to have a cute pic.. lol

So, while I had a good weekend, I did not have a good "diet" weekend.. HOWEVER, I did do pretty decent eating though.  I just had a few more carbs than I normally would.. which I knew I would..  however, my plans got changed due to time crunching, so I didn't get to go to the wedding I'd planned to go to.. but I did get my new car!!  :)

Ain't it cute?!  This is what I've been working towards for the past few months.. It's all come down to this, and thankfully I had a great experience with all of it.. It's a 2006 Kia Spectra EX.. and sadly, I've already (indirectly) put a dent into it, damn it!  lol.. driving on the interstate, with those damn semis.. stupid things losing tires.. ugh!  I got hit with a piece of rubber today on the way home.. and almost lost my lunch (what little I actually ate) when I saw what the damage was.. it's not actually too bad, once I wash off the rubber smears.. :(

my "sick" care plan.. orange soda is my saving grace when I get sick..

Okay, so when I get sick, I have certain things that I KNOW will help me feel so much better.. and they are definitely NOT on the Atkins program.. so on Friday, I plan to weigh in, take the number in stride, and then start the induction again on Friday to get back into this.. I know what I'm lacking.. exercise.. motivation.. and I know that baby steps are what is gonna get me back there.. keep moving forward.. 

I'm slowly finding the originals for the pics I want to put into my Inspiration Notebook.. I'm hoping to have it all done by Friday.. fingers crossed..  I'm hoping since it's only Tuesday that my week isn't totally "ruined".. I do plan to go to work like normal tomorrow, go to the gym afterwards (even if I can only walk on the treadmill, due to lack of breathing ability), and keep that motivation on through the rest of the week.. 

I feel so much better than what I did even yesterday.. and I get to sleep in tomorrow, so who knows how good I'll feel at 12pm tomorrow!  :)  Keeping my fingers crossed that the sleep continues to help me get over this sinus shit.. I mean, I've been so blah that I haven't even had the energy to blog..

Well, that sucked..

Alrighty.. so all my speals about how we can make it through this holiday season without going overboard totally didn't help me at all.. and I feel like a total failure, because all I want to do right now is give up and just say FUCK IT!  (sorry, but there is no other word to use to emphasize how deflated I feel right now)

I hate that I can do this to myself.. and the funny thing is that, as I am typing this, Cher is singing 'You Haven't Seen The Last of Me' from the Burlesque Soundtrack (had to buy it as soon as I came home from seeing the movie.. which was SUPERB!!).. so it's inspiring me to "get back up" from throwing my internal floor-hitting tantrum.. lol

I tell myself I've been working so hard, but what I forgot is that I have to start working harder at some point, because while at the beginning Zumba was working to get my weight down, it ain't helping too much for the weight loss.. so I gotta start adding to it..

Which brings me to my main point (well, one of them at least... hehe).. I am starting the 30 Day Shred tonight.. because I'd love to see if I could lose enough inches to get my ass into this dress..  well, scratch that, I'd like to be HOT in it.. seeing as I can now fit into it (which is awesome! lol)..

I was supposed to wear this dress to some New Years party 4 years ago, I think.. and of course, it never got worn.. I even have KILLER shoes to go with it.. and I wanna wear it this year.. lol

So I'm off to go do the first day of this killer workout.. and then to finish making some playlists for my iPod.. like one to lift me up..

Inspiriation..

Inspiration comes in many shapes and forms.. for everyone, it's different things.. a pair of pants, someone they see in an ad, someone they want to date/marry.. something is always in the background pushing us to do better for ourselves..

And it's that inspiration that we need to keep in our heads during this food-related holiday weekend.. I'm making sure that my size 12 pair of Jessica Simpson jeans are hanging on my closet door.. those jeans are just one thing that inspires me to do good on this journey.. my lack of bigger jeans is another one.. lol.. 

So what are your plans to make it through this holiday weekend?

My plans for getting through this weekend with a loss is to eat before I go to Thanksgiving.. not a whole meal, just a little something (like a Fiber Plus bar and an apple).. and to only get a smaller plate and fill it more with protein and veggies than carbs..  And then ya got the early morning/late night shopping of Black Friday.. my goal there is to keep myself warm with tea, not hot chocolate, and bring with me my own munchies (not sure yet what, but I'm sure it'll be fruit and easy-to-store stuff) too..

Well, I'm finishing up on my Alex O'Loughlin fest, aka Hawaii Five-O marathon.. and then I'm off to the gym.. :)