Almost December..

Okay, so I'm shocked that there is only 26 more days til Christmas!  Where in the world did the year 2010 go???

I'm not ready to bring in the new year.. I'm not anywhere near what I thought I would be.. and I can honestly say I'm kinda scared of Christmas this year.. the food, the ill-fitting clothes I'll be getting from my mom.. yeah, she's in denial about my weight-loss, I think.. or I just wear things tighter than she wants me to.. lol

But I am doing something new, and I'm doing monthly goals.. I'll post them once I get home from work.. and some of them have nothing to do with exercise, but with life..

Fun times will be had in December!

Well, that sucked..

Alrighty.. so all my speals about how we can make it through this holiday season without going overboard totally didn't help me at all.. and I feel like a total failure, because all I want to do right now is give up and just say FUCK IT!  (sorry, but there is no other word to use to emphasize how deflated I feel right now)

I hate that I can do this to myself.. and the funny thing is that, as I am typing this, Cher is singing 'You Haven't Seen The Last of Me' from the Burlesque Soundtrack (had to buy it as soon as I came home from seeing the movie.. which was SUPERB!!).. so it's inspiring me to "get back up" from throwing my internal floor-hitting tantrum.. lol

I tell myself I've been working so hard, but what I forgot is that I have to start working harder at some point, because while at the beginning Zumba was working to get my weight down, it ain't helping too much for the weight loss.. so I gotta start adding to it..

Which brings me to my main point (well, one of them at least... hehe).. I am starting the 30 Day Shred tonight.. because I'd love to see if I could lose enough inches to get my ass into this dress..  well, scratch that, I'd like to be HOT in it.. seeing as I can now fit into it (which is awesome! lol)..

I was supposed to wear this dress to some New Years party 4 years ago, I think.. and of course, it never got worn.. I even have KILLER shoes to go with it.. and I wanna wear it this year.. lol

So I'm off to go do the first day of this killer workout.. and then to finish making some playlists for my iPod.. like one to lift me up..