Day 2..

wasn't that bad.. again, with the music, it went SUPER fast..

I can't believe I gave up on this the last time.. in October.. I mean, I can't be in THAT much better shape.. can I??  I still am sore, but I am not sweating as profusely as I remember doing in October.. hmm.. interesting.. lol

So after looking online a bit, I found out that there is a Burlesque class on Feb. 21st (of course, it isn't the week BEFORE Valentine's Day.. meanies..).. and I'm SO GOING!! Maybe I can convince BB and Katie to come with me?!  It's in Louisville, Ky, which isn't TOO far to go, seeing as I live miles from anything of substance.. lmao..

I'm excited that I found one so quickly.. I thought I'd have to search for a while..

**UPDATE**

Seems that the class on the 21st is from LAST YEAR!  Duh me.. :(    So I'm going to call the dance studio and see if there are any more classes in the future..

Well, that was fun..

Okay, so I'm done with the first day of the 30 day Shred by Jillian Michaels.. and boy, do I wanna hit her.. lol.. but it wasn't THAT bad, and it went even faster because I was listening to my iPod while I was doing it.. I think it'll work pretty well to get me fitting into that dress.. 

Sabrina @ Sabrina is on the move! is eerily on the same brain wave I am.. and we've been that way for a while.. it's nice to know that I'm not the only one who feels the way I do.. sometimes I feel like I'm going crazy.. but I'm definitely decided that I am doing the Adkins diet again on January 1st.. I'd start Monday, but that's just setting me up for failure.. 

Until then, I'm going to try to scale back my eating habits.. because I have gotten WAY to lax on what I put in my mouth.. and that isn't good at all.. I don't know how some people can diet for all their worth, but I can't.. ugh!  

Now I go to finish some iPod playlists.. some for running, some for inspiration, and some just for plain ole fun dancing music!!  :)

What songs do you listen to during your runs?  

or just to dance around to??

Well, that sucked..

Alrighty.. so all my speals about how we can make it through this holiday season without going overboard totally didn't help me at all.. and I feel like a total failure, because all I want to do right now is give up and just say FUCK IT!  (sorry, but there is no other word to use to emphasize how deflated I feel right now)

I hate that I can do this to myself.. and the funny thing is that, as I am typing this, Cher is singing 'You Haven't Seen The Last of Me' from the Burlesque Soundtrack (had to buy it as soon as I came home from seeing the movie.. which was SUPERB!!).. so it's inspiring me to "get back up" from throwing my internal floor-hitting tantrum.. lol

I tell myself I've been working so hard, but what I forgot is that I have to start working harder at some point, because while at the beginning Zumba was working to get my weight down, it ain't helping too much for the weight loss.. so I gotta start adding to it..

Which brings me to my main point (well, one of them at least... hehe).. I am starting the 30 Day Shred tonight.. because I'd love to see if I could lose enough inches to get my ass into this dress..  well, scratch that, I'd like to be HOT in it.. seeing as I can now fit into it (which is awesome! lol)..

I was supposed to wear this dress to some New Years party 4 years ago, I think.. and of course, it never got worn.. I even have KILLER shoes to go with it.. and I wanna wear it this year.. lol

So I'm off to go do the first day of this killer workout.. and then to finish making some playlists for my iPod.. like one to lift me up..

Danger, Will Robinson, Danger!

I'm about to start working on my accountability wall, and realized that I honestly haven't eaten yet.. I'm afraid that after this past weekend, I'll continue to make bad food choices and not go back onto my "normal diet".. But I need to get to where I'm okay on my feet again without having to worry I'm going to crash and burn again.. :(

Made myself a healthy sandwich.. hoping that I can make up for what damage I did last week.. I'm also gonna do the Shred workout tonight.. maybe I'll get out in this nice cool weather and try running.. anything is possible.. lol..

Off to go do some work.. I'll post pics of my finished wall later.. :)

Well, well, well...

Okay, so I am definitely glad that this week is OVER!!  It's been horrible.. to my diet, to my workout, to my exercise goals, and mostly to my wallet!  And I've missed out on reading SO many of my fellow bloggers entries over the past week.. so I'm gonna spend my Friday night playing "catch up" with everyone!  :)   So for future reference, thanks for giving me something to do.. ;)

So I weighed myself this morning.. yay me.. and I found that I'm up to 229.4lbs.. I knew I gained, but I'm actually relieved that it was so little after the week I've had.. just to sum up my week in a list:

* Found out my favorite client (the carrot-cake lady) 
is no longer using the company I work for.. :(

* Flat tire on Tuesday WHILE on the way to a client's dr appointment
(while he was in the car with me)..

* Found out Wednesday Wal-Mart won't replace/fix it..

* Cheated on my diet 3 times!!!!  This is the biggest issue for me right now..

* Only did about 2 days of the Shred in the past 10 days..  :(

* Had to borrow money from my grandmother 

(it's on the bottom of the list of things I love to do)

* Found out that fixing my truck was going to cost almost $700, 

not the original $350 I thought..

* Can't afford to pay all my bills this week bc of the truck issues.. 

That's basically it.. which is enough for me.. and this is why I was worried I'd gain tons of weight back.. but I've gotten some good comments from people about how they deal with stress-eating.. and I am back on track starting today.. :)   I've decided to do the 30 Day Shred with Syl in October, because I've missed too much in the beginning to catch up.. and I just found out that I was thinking the run/walk that is tomorrow is actually a 5 MILE walk, not 5k like I thought.. lol.. oops!

Can't wait to do this with Katie and Blubeari, and take tons of pics!!  I can't wait to get my race bib!  I'm so lame, it's okay though, I like it.. ;)

Good luck with your weekend, and I hope you have a great one!  I can't wait to see what everyone has been up to while I've been hiding in my dilemma's.. lol

Playin the Avoidance Game..

Alrighty, fellow bloggers!  Time to fess up.. I have been avoiding doing this since I got home Sunday afternoon.. Just a quick recap of my weekend, so I can keep it to a 10 minute read (hopefully less.. lol).. Okay, so I hope everyone had a happy and SAFE Labor Day.. I had a safe Labor Day, but it wasn't too fun because I had to work.. :(

My job is fun, somewhat easy (at most times), and is so worth it.. But staying with a person that I don't normally hang around with for 48 hours is somewhat stressful.. It's kinda like playing house.. except with someone elses house.. lol.. Okay, basically, I did NOT get to work out (beyond the stuff I could do while standing there folding laundry or doing dishes).. did NOT eat right.. and left there feeling totally crappy because I knew I had to tell you all how badly I had fallen off the wagon.. and OH BOY DID I!

So I started my diet on Monday with a "clean slate" so to speak.. If I gain, it's my own fault.. However, it is my goal this week to maintain, if not do my darndest to lose those last 1.9 lbs to get to my 25 lb goal.. I need a new dress shirt!!  :)   Today, Tuesday, is my re-start day for the Shred Challenge and exercise in general.. I feel horrible about the fact that the first trial I had in this diet (the first serious one), I just gave up.. :(

My goal this week is to figure out a way to not go crazy when stress comes into my life and overwhelms me..  Any suggestions?  What do you all do to keep yourself "on track" when stress is around?

This is it for today.. I promise.. haha

Okay, so I had to blog a little about the day as a whole.. I actually got myself out of my house and to the gym to do the 50 minute Zumba class.. and was surprised that I wasn't hurting too bad at the end.. and of course, when I got home my mom (who has had a new gastric bypass done a few months ago) wanted me to go walking with her.. 

So we did two laps around the lake down the street from our house.. and when we got home, I wanted to just plop on the floor and lay there.. lol.. my deal was if I went with her walking, she'd step on my back to pop it.. and I got my back popped.. THANK GOODNESS!! The Zumba workout and the walk were both done on an empty stomach, which is something I'm definitely working on.. with my current medications, my appetite is somewhat suppressed.. and I have to remember to eat every 4 hours or so.. a few days last week I noticed it was 10pm and realized I hadn't eaten since noon.. :(

But I ate these cute little chicken chunks that are NOT BREADED!!!  Even have a cute little name.. Skinny Chix.. lol.. I had like 6 pcs of that and was pleasantly surprised by their good flavor.. Found them at Wal-Mart, for anyone who is interested.. now I'm gonna go shower and crash into my bed.. to wake up and do it all again tomorrow.. well, maybe not ALL of that.. 

1st of September...

So it's the beginning of a new month.. Where did August go?  I can't believe in a little over 2 months I'll be 27.. So scary.. and so exciting to see what my FAB body will look like by then.. I was looking around my house and saw a picture from 2 Christmas' ago..  I was HUGE!!  And this past Christmas was not too much better.. I want to be slimmer by Christmas, if not be totally done "dieting"..  So crazy to even be thinking about Christmas but it's getting closer and closer.. holy cow!

So today is the "1st day of the rest of my life".. lol.. that might not be quite true, but it feels a little like it.. today actually is the 1st day of the 30 Day Shred.. and I got done with my first workout about 30 minutes ago.. and while I wanted to die right afterwards, and started sweating about 5 minutes into it, I feel really good about it.. and any anger I have towards Jillian Michaels I get to take out on her with boxing moves.. I punch her in the face.. lmao

Can't wait to read other people's blogs to see how well everyone is doing on their journey with this program.. :)   Thinking I may take a short nap, and I also plan to do Zumba tonight too, so I'm hoping my legs won't feel like rubber by then.. ;)

It's the 1st of September!!

and for any of you who have been reading this, you know that today is the day that the 30 Day Shred starts.. yikes!  Well, my plan was to wake up at 4:30 am and work out, shower and go to work.. And I prolly could have done that but I had the worst night sleep last night (prolly in anticipation for this to start).. So I figured I'd post my measurements and pics this morning and just make sure to do the first workout when I get home from work.. Oh boy..

My beginning measurements are as follows:

Arms: 14"

Chest: 40"

Waist: 39"

Hips: 49"

Thighs: 28"

Okay, I was shocked when I saw that my waist and my chest are basically the same amount.. not cool.. I thought I had a defined waist, and I actually do, but my waist isn't ANYWHERE near my belly button.. lol.. which is where I did the measurement so I'd be able to do it accurately in the future..  And for the gross pics..

Yeah, I'm kinda disgusted with how chunky I got... which is prolly why there are no pics of me from my chest down in the past few years.. gotta love denial, right?!  Well, it's off to work for me!  Have a good Wednesday, everyone!

OH MY GOSH!!!!

Can ya tell I had a good day?!  lol.. I honestly, really truly, had an AWESOME day, actually!  I don't even know where to start, but I figure the beginning of the day is prolly the best.. ;)

So I woke up today thinking that tomorrow started the 30 Day Shred on Syl's blog.. and I honestly am still kinda scared out of my mind about it.. but I made my mind up that I was gonna do it, and I'm sticking to it, dag nab it!!  So I went to work, all normal and stuff, and eventually went home (after some detours to the craft store and Petsmart to see the kitties I can't take home with me).. And found myself TRYING to talk myself into ditching my workout.. the key word there is trying.. I wasn't successful!  YAY!!

Was feeling quite tired (woke up really early, after going to bed late), so I let myself take an hour nap.. and couldn't sleep.. so I just lay there for a while, and then got dressed for the gym and left before I could say something to stay at home.. lol.. I belong to my local YMCA, and for those who have NO IDEA where my town is, or what it's called for that matter, the fact that we even HAVE a YMCA is a miracle..  We have that and a Wal-Mart (which we say that's why we are considered a city instead of a town.. hehe)..

From past posts, you know that I LOVE Zumba classes.. and while I don't go as often as I'd like to, I go as much as I can but they only have classes at night on Mondays and Wednesdays.. :(     So today, Tuesday, they had a class called TurboKick.. and that last part is right, as in it KICKS YOUR BOOTY!!  I had to use my inhaler towards the end, which is saying a lot.. I'm feelin kinda wore out, but I know I'll keep doing it.. :)

Oh, and I found an iPod Podcast for a Couch to 5k program called 5k 101.. I have to use podcasts because I have an iPod Classic.. which is NOT an iPod that has App capabilities.. :(   So I did that after sweating my butt off during TurboKick.. I had to use my inhaler again, but I made it through.. and then high tailed my butt out before I passed out.. that's another blog all together.. lol

My OMG moment happened when I got home.. I've gotten kinda compulsive about weighing myself, which I've got to stop, and weighed myself after I got home.. I'VE REACHED THE 20 LB MARK!!  One day after my girl Katie got to her 20 lb mark, I reached mine!!  I'm exstatic.. nothing can burst this bubble.. or so I thought.. My sorority sisters father just passed away from cancer.. so I am sad for her.. but there's still that lingering happiness in the back of my mind that is making me wanna do a little dance..

So I'm gonna dance a little and try not to cry for my sorority sister..