I can do it.. and YOU can too!

Okay, so I did a weigh in today (and I'm thinking of changing my weigh in days back to Friday, but I'll explain that in a later post).. 

Today, I weighed in at:

223.2 lbs..

That is a 2.9 lb gain.. This was disappointing, but not totally surprising. (and actually made me feel kinda normal).. I found that last week was a "ho hum" kind of week.  I didn't get to go to the gym, and I didn't try to do anything at home.. I kept to my diet kinda, and then proceeded to allow myself to cheat on Friday and Sunday.. I don't know what prompted me to cheat on my diet, as I wasn't stressed or anything like the last time, but it happened, so I need to figure out why and stop it from happening again..

I went out on Sunday, got my nails did (hehe), saw (part) of a movie and went to a formal meeting with my Phi Sigma Sigma sistas.. It was fun, and I'm glad I went out.. It was a good day, all in all.. until I got McDonalds.. :(  I mention the meeting because one of my sistas, Erin, mentioned something I've been looking into recently.. ACCOUNTABILITY..

While I say that you all, my readers, hold me accountable, it's more of a "Big Brother is watching" kind of accountability.. I wish I could say to myself "Holy cow, what would my readers say to me if I do this", but I don't do it at the right time.. It's always too late.. But that's not the point.. My point is I have to find my own way of holding myself accountable.. of course, without getting too crazy about my weight loss.. and I've figured that others have some of this kind of issue too..

I've got my "racing platform" hanging on my wall by my bed.. I'm definitely going to use that as my accountability wall too.. Post pics of me over my transformation, post weigh in's (so they are in my face 24/7), etc.. What do you do to hold yourself accountable? Do you have someone else who keeps you accountable?  Do you need someone to help you with your accountability?  

I hope that you, as readers, find something to keep you on this journey that will make you a healthier, happier you.. because even though I'm not even halfway done yet, I know that it is SO worth ever sacrifice I've had to make.. :)

Well, well, well...

Okay, so I am definitely glad that this week is OVER!!  It's been horrible.. to my diet, to my workout, to my exercise goals, and mostly to my wallet!  And I've missed out on reading SO many of my fellow bloggers entries over the past week.. so I'm gonna spend my Friday night playing "catch up" with everyone!  :)   So for future reference, thanks for giving me something to do.. ;)

So I weighed myself this morning.. yay me.. and I found that I'm up to 229.4lbs.. I knew I gained, but I'm actually relieved that it was so little after the week I've had.. just to sum up my week in a list:

* Found out my favorite client (the carrot-cake lady) 
is no longer using the company I work for.. :(

* Flat tire on Tuesday WHILE on the way to a client's dr appointment
(while he was in the car with me)..

* Found out Wednesday Wal-Mart won't replace/fix it..

* Cheated on my diet 3 times!!!!  This is the biggest issue for me right now..

* Only did about 2 days of the Shred in the past 10 days..  :(

* Had to borrow money from my grandmother 

(it's on the bottom of the list of things I love to do)

* Found out that fixing my truck was going to cost almost $700, 

not the original $350 I thought..

* Can't afford to pay all my bills this week bc of the truck issues.. 

That's basically it.. which is enough for me.. and this is why I was worried I'd gain tons of weight back.. but I've gotten some good comments from people about how they deal with stress-eating.. and I am back on track starting today.. :)   I've decided to do the 30 Day Shred with Syl in October, because I've missed too much in the beginning to catch up.. and I just found out that I was thinking the run/walk that is tomorrow is actually a 5 MILE walk, not 5k like I thought.. lol.. oops!

Can't wait to do this with Katie and Blubeari, and take tons of pics!!  I can't wait to get my race bib!  I'm so lame, it's okay though, I like it.. ;)

Good luck with your weekend, and I hope you have a great one!  I can't wait to see what everyone has been up to while I've been hiding in my dilemma's.. lol

Playin the Avoidance Game..

Alrighty, fellow bloggers!  Time to fess up.. I have been avoiding doing this since I got home Sunday afternoon.. Just a quick recap of my weekend, so I can keep it to a 10 minute read (hopefully less.. lol).. Okay, so I hope everyone had a happy and SAFE Labor Day.. I had a safe Labor Day, but it wasn't too fun because I had to work.. :(

My job is fun, somewhat easy (at most times), and is so worth it.. But staying with a person that I don't normally hang around with for 48 hours is somewhat stressful.. It's kinda like playing house.. except with someone elses house.. lol.. Okay, basically, I did NOT get to work out (beyond the stuff I could do while standing there folding laundry or doing dishes).. did NOT eat right.. and left there feeling totally crappy because I knew I had to tell you all how badly I had fallen off the wagon.. and OH BOY DID I!

So I started my diet on Monday with a "clean slate" so to speak.. If I gain, it's my own fault.. However, it is my goal this week to maintain, if not do my darndest to lose those last 1.9 lbs to get to my 25 lb goal.. I need a new dress shirt!!  :)   Today, Tuesday, is my re-start day for the Shred Challenge and exercise in general.. I feel horrible about the fact that the first trial I had in this diet (the first serious one), I just gave up.. :(

My goal this week is to figure out a way to not go crazy when stress comes into my life and overwhelms me..  Any suggestions?  What do you all do to keep yourself "on track" when stress is around?

Cheater cheater, Pumpkin eater..

So today was my "nephew" Rylan's 4th birthday.. and I originally wasn't supposed to be going (was going out of town) but my trip got cancelled so I was excited to go.. I missed last years and didn't want to miss another one.. He's so cute and smart!  But I decided to use today as my "cheat day".. which is a 1 hour period where I can eat whatever I want, no counting carbs.. and what did I decide to "cheat" with?

10 Pc Chicken Nugget 

Medium Fry

small piece of birthday cake with whipped frosting

homemade dip with cheese, veggies and beef

Not too bad, but I didn't gorge myself like I had thought I would.. I finished that with 35ish minutes left and didn't even go for seconds, so I didn't do too bad, I think.. This "cheat day" is what I use to not go out of my mind with wanting to visit with my fave guys Ben and Jerry, or want Chicken Nuggets, or just to not have to scour a menu for a steak on a date.. lol

So I won't get one until after this coming Friday.. I get one 1 hour cheat a week.. and I try to use it when I go out, not when I am at home.. it's no fun to eat bad without anyone else doing it too..