Weigh In and a Food Review

Well, it's been a pretty hectic week for me.. so hectic that I didn't have time to post my weigh in.. so to get it on here, here it is..

227.8

I'm pretty proud of my 1 lb loss.. especially since I was having problems tracking calories a few days.. but this loss is just watching my calories, no exercise (thanks to forgetting to update my debit card information at my gym).. but I'm hoping to get out tomorrow morning, either to the gym or running outside..

So this past week has been super busy, and super stressful as I said earlier.. had my great-great-aunt die a few days ago, her funeral was today.. I couldn't get myself to go, thanks to my anxiety.. why, you may ask?! My anxiety peaked about 4 years ago, when my 26 year old cousin died from kidney failure.. I could barely go up to the casket, then I almost ran outside hyperventilating.. haven't been to a funeral since.. and prolly won't for a while.. just thinking about it last night kept me up crying for a couple hours.. ugh!

On a more positive note, I found this new food packet in my Walmart a few days ago, and after trying it tonight, I had to share.. It's called Tortilla Stuffers from Old El Paso.. I got the mesquite chicken kind, but they have two other kinds too.. it's a low-calorie food (90 calories for 1/3 cup), and I put the serving on a medium tortilla.. I had two servings, and I am pleasantly full.. the only bad thing about it is more of a personal thing.. it needs some kind of sauce, like sour cream, next time.. lol

***** I have not been paid for this review.. This review is purely my opinion, and is to be taken as just that.. *****

This Past Week = MAJOR FAIL!!!

Well, hello, my lovely followers.. and welcome to all the ones that've recently started following..

As the title of this entry states, this past week has been summed up to be a MAJOR fail.. not just major, but with capital letters.. ugh!  And because I want to get it all out of my brain, here I am.. finally.. lol

I've already told you about Tuesday.. well, the rest of the week, Wednesday and Thursday, was just as crappy.. I ate anything I could get my hands on.. and McDonald's was a big issue for me.. sadly.. I'm not sure what happened, but this week just threw me for a loop..

Now Friday, well that day was a doozy.. I was running late for work, so me being me, I was a little speedy on the Interstate.. so my luck just wouldn't quit being bad, and I got pulled over.. my an Indiana State police officer.. Well, he was nice enough to give me a warning.. I was going 7 miles over the speed limit.. he gave me a warning bc he was arresting me for a 3 year old warrant from another county.. seriously?!  It was for "Failure To Appear" btw..

Even the cop was kinda sympathetic.. which was really great.. he handcuffed me, after I called my mom (to save me from impound fees), with my hands in front of me.. and I rode in the front seat.. I was in jail for almost 4 hours.. worst four hours of my life!!!  And I even had to call the dad of the kids I was babyistting for to let him know I was being arrested.. how embarrassing!  All I can think is that I'm thankful that my parents were so great to come get me out so quickly.. and that my bail was only $500, so they paid the 10% and got me out.. if they hadn't been able to, I'd have been stuck in there all weekend.. :(   So I have to go to court on Monday at 9:30.. and I plan to go with as much information as physically possible..

Oh, did I mention I weighed in on Friday morning before I left for work?!  Yeah, I'd gained 5lbs in ONE WEEK!!  WHAT?!  Yep, that's me.. I can gain weight like nobody else.. :(   This weekend hasn't been much better.. physically, it's been better.. eating, it's been just as bad.. ugh!  Which has led me to realize that I really haven't been taking this weight loss seriously for quite some time..  It's so easy to blame my life, or whatever else, on my inability to permanently lose weight.. but it's not the truth.. the truth is I honestly haven't cared about what I'm doing for a few months.. 

I was going to the gym at least 4 days a week for a while.. then I realized I was getting home later and later every day.. and that was an excuse for me.. now, I'm sitting here thinking "what the hell does it matter what time I get home at?! My DVR is recording all my shows, and I'm not gonna watch them until later anyways.. so why not go to the gym when I could?!"  It's so sad that I've wasted all this time when I should have realized all this earlier.. I've been just coasting by, living life at 50% (if that).. and that's not the kind of life I deserve.. I deserve to put in the effort now, to live a comfy life LATER.. I need to earn my comfy life.. 

So, as of tomorrow, I will be up 90 minutes before I have to leave for work everyday.. on days I don't work, I will get up by 9am.. I will eat breakfast everyday (even if it's just a banana).. I will pack a lunch to eat at work.. I will count calories like a madman.. I will try my hardest to stay away from drive-thru's.. and I will cook at least twice a week (this is not including my mom's cooking).. and I will stop eating throughout the night (big no-no)..

I know some of you are like "HALLELUJAH! SHE'S FINALLY SEEN THE LIGHT!!"  and then some of you are prolly thinking sympathetic thoughts.. but I don't blame anyone for thinking the first thing.. I am hoping this is finally the "light".. especially since in 3 months, I've been on this journey for a year.. and 25 lbs in a year isn't really something to be proud of.. at least not to me..

Quick Weigh-In

Overslept this morning (I <3 my bed SO MUCH!!), so I don't really have time for more than a quick official weigh-in and a few words.. :)   So, I was even more excited to see the numbers on the scale this morning.. I'm officially out of the 220's now.. YAY!!!

219.6 lbs

- 3.6 

Woohoo!!  I mean, honestly, I was excited to see those numbers, let alone see that I lost my TOM weight AND a bit more!  YAY!!   I'm so happy!  Oh, and due to fabric issues (I picked the holes in my jeans to where they were splitting higher into the jeans), I had to throw away my size 16 jeans.. so there's more incentive to get out of the 16's and into my 14's that are waiting to be worn.. :)

JUST A REMINDER: If you won one of my giveaway's, you have until today to claim your prize.. If I don't hear from you by the end of today, I will be drawing again for that prize.. I hate to do that, but I don't want to wait too long to ship stuff out.. I'm too forgetful for that.. :(

Weigh In #1

Okay, so I was kinda expecting a gain.. but I was pleasantly surprised that it wasn't a big one..

225.6 lbs (+1.2 lbs)

I can live with gaining a pound during this week of transition.. But no more! I will not let myself "get away with" gaining anymore.. I can't help but think that even gaining/losing the same 1-2 lbs is just as bad as gaining and losing the same 10-20 lbs, health wise.. And I really don't want to hurt my body than I already have in the past (by losing and gaining and gaining)..

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Good to know I am not the only one who thought that dress was crazy.. While it is adorable, I'm half tempted to go bitch out the boutique who has it up in their display.. eh, whatever, I'm sure some mom will do it for me.. lol

I'm off to have weigh in #2, at my Weight Watchers meeting.. :)

Drumroll, please...

With no further ado, or blathering on and on (hehe), I am so excited about my weight this morning..

I weighed in at:

227.0 lbs!!

OH YEAH!!

I'm definitely super happy about this weight loss, which is a 2.6 lb loss.. say bye-bye to water weight.. but hey, I don't care if it was hair product, it was there last Friday, and it ain't no more!!

Thank you so much to all the wonderful people who left me amazing comments about keepin on keepin on..:)

I really wish I wasn't up this early though.. lol.. I'm thinkin I'm off to bed again.. hehe.. only for an hour or so.. because now that I know I've lost, I'm so going to get my nails done, because they need it SO bad.. AND I am putting my Christmas tree up tomorrow!!  I'm so excited!!  Can't wait to post pics and show you all!! :)

Happy Friday!!

Dun Dun Duuuun..

It's Friday.. and I almost forgot to weigh myself before going to work.. but without further procrastination, my weight this week is:

224.6 lbs

That's a loss of 3.6 lbs!!  Holy cow!  I definitely wasn't expecting that.. I was thinking maybe a pound, at the most 2.. I'm very encouraged by this though.. It means that I can keep truckin, without having to be on the Adkins diet forever.. I'm definitely dissapointed in myself though for not waking up this morning and getting to the gym to try to get a better time on my mile.. Well, there's always Sunday, right? :)

Hope you lovely readers and bloggers have a great weekend.. I'm off to work..

I can do it.. and YOU can too!

Okay, so I did a weigh in today (and I'm thinking of changing my weigh in days back to Friday, but I'll explain that in a later post).. 

Today, I weighed in at:

223.2 lbs..

That is a 2.9 lb gain.. This was disappointing, but not totally surprising. (and actually made me feel kinda normal).. I found that last week was a "ho hum" kind of week.  I didn't get to go to the gym, and I didn't try to do anything at home.. I kept to my diet kinda, and then proceeded to allow myself to cheat on Friday and Sunday.. I don't know what prompted me to cheat on my diet, as I wasn't stressed or anything like the last time, but it happened, so I need to figure out why and stop it from happening again..

I went out on Sunday, got my nails did (hehe), saw (part) of a movie and went to a formal meeting with my Phi Sigma Sigma sistas.. It was fun, and I'm glad I went out.. It was a good day, all in all.. until I got McDonalds.. :(  I mention the meeting because one of my sistas, Erin, mentioned something I've been looking into recently.. ACCOUNTABILITY..

While I say that you all, my readers, hold me accountable, it's more of a "Big Brother is watching" kind of accountability.. I wish I could say to myself "Holy cow, what would my readers say to me if I do this", but I don't do it at the right time.. It's always too late.. But that's not the point.. My point is I have to find my own way of holding myself accountable.. of course, without getting too crazy about my weight loss.. and I've figured that others have some of this kind of issue too..

I've got my "racing platform" hanging on my wall by my bed.. I'm definitely going to use that as my accountability wall too.. Post pics of me over my transformation, post weigh in's (so they are in my face 24/7), etc.. What do you do to hold yourself accountable? Do you have someone else who keeps you accountable?  Do you need someone to help you with your accountability?  

I hope that you, as readers, find something to keep you on this journey that will make you a healthier, happier you.. because even though I'm not even halfway done yet, I know that it is SO worth ever sacrifice I've had to make.. :)

Oops and Thanks!

I'm not sure how I did this, but in my excitement for Monday, I TOTALLY forgot to weigh in this morning.. UGH!  I was so looking forward to seeing how many lbs I've lost since last Monday.. I've noticed things fitting looser, so I weighed myself when I got home from work tonight.. and I was ECSTATIC!!

Tonight I weighed in at 222.8 lbs!! 

That means I've passed the 25 lb mark 

and gotten to 27.5 lbs!! 

I can't wait to see what it is tomorrow morning.. maybe I'll somehow magically lose those 2.5 lbs that are keeping me from 30 lbs.. here's hoping.. lol.. so I didn't get to do my Shred tonight, but I did do 20 minutes of activity.. I hope to wake up early tomorrow and enjoy this wonderful weather for a nice walk/jog.. Gotta start with baby steps, I guess..

I can't wait to get under the 220 mark.. I don't know how long it's been since I've actually seen that number.. and that makes me sad.. because I haven't been happy with how I look for SO long, and I realize that whatever my motivation is (which I'm still not sure what it was in the beginning), I need to bottle it because it's keeping me from just giving up.. I think it's majorly because of you all.. so THANK YOU!  Thank you for keeping me accountable to someone other than myself.. Thank you for supporting me, no matter how.. Thank you for reading!

New Look.. In So Many Ways

So I hope you like the new look of my blog as much as I do.. I've been meaning to do this for a while, but better late than never, right?!  lol.. Thanks go out to Katie who pointed me to Erika's blog about how to add pages to my blog.. But like my title says, I've got a new look in so many ways.. and I'd love to show you! 

When I weighed in this morning, I was at:

228.0 lbs

Today is the first day of my "Restart".. my ticker at the top of my page will still show my total lost though because I worked hard to get that weight off.. and I'm proud of it.. :)   I'm thinking I'm going to start planning my meals out (as much as I can while eating with my parents some days) on Sundays and make sure to cook it as ahead of time as possible, because I have lazy days where cooking just makes me wanna vomit.. sorry, but it's true..

My big problem I'm running into is breakfast.. I don't like to eat at 6am, and my meds make me not hungry for a while into the day.. so I'm going to have to make myself eat SOMETHING.. This part of the Adkins diet is always tricky because I have to pay attention to how much of things I eat.. which is good calorie-wise, but it sucks carb-wise.. You know how many foods have 2 grams of carbs per TABLESPOON?!  like ketchup?!  I love ketchup!!  and I'll have to watch how much I use of it.. lol

I was planning to do the "Induction" part of the Adkins again anyways, but it was gonna be the last two weeks of October (so I could be that much skinnier before my 27th birthday.. hehe).. so it's a little bit sooner than I planned, but it's still happening.. :)  I'm excited to get back into this, and am gonna get ready to go to the gym as soon as I'm done writing this.. can't wait to go to zumba again!  I've missed it so much.. 

Well, well, well...

Okay, so I am definitely glad that this week is OVER!!  It's been horrible.. to my diet, to my workout, to my exercise goals, and mostly to my wallet!  And I've missed out on reading SO many of my fellow bloggers entries over the past week.. so I'm gonna spend my Friday night playing "catch up" with everyone!  :)   So for future reference, thanks for giving me something to do.. ;)

So I weighed myself this morning.. yay me.. and I found that I'm up to 229.4lbs.. I knew I gained, but I'm actually relieved that it was so little after the week I've had.. just to sum up my week in a list:

* Found out my favorite client (the carrot-cake lady) 
is no longer using the company I work for.. :(

* Flat tire on Tuesday WHILE on the way to a client's dr appointment
(while he was in the car with me)..

* Found out Wednesday Wal-Mart won't replace/fix it..

* Cheated on my diet 3 times!!!!  This is the biggest issue for me right now..

* Only did about 2 days of the Shred in the past 10 days..  :(

* Had to borrow money from my grandmother 

(it's on the bottom of the list of things I love to do)

* Found out that fixing my truck was going to cost almost $700, 

not the original $350 I thought..

* Can't afford to pay all my bills this week bc of the truck issues.. 

That's basically it.. which is enough for me.. and this is why I was worried I'd gain tons of weight back.. but I've gotten some good comments from people about how they deal with stress-eating.. and I am back on track starting today.. :)   I've decided to do the 30 Day Shred with Syl in October, because I've missed too much in the beginning to catch up.. and I just found out that I was thinking the run/walk that is tomorrow is actually a 5 MILE walk, not 5k like I thought.. lol.. oops!

Can't wait to do this with Katie and Blubeari, and take tons of pics!!  I can't wait to get my race bib!  I'm so lame, it's okay though, I like it.. ;)

Good luck with your weekend, and I hope you have a great one!  I can't wait to see what everyone has been up to while I've been hiding in my dilemma's.. lol

Really Quick Weigh In..

Woke up late and keep finding all these awesome things that are making me wanna just sit here and read.. I won an award, I now have 15 followers (AMAZING to me!) and Katie tagged me in a game that I can't wait to play.. once I get done with work..

But the quick weigh-in.. I am now at 227.2!! I'm officially at 23.0 lbs lost!  I'm so exstatic!!  My scrubs don't fit properly anymore, so I knew it was a good number this week.. :)

More later about my crappy day yesterday in an entry later today..

Happy Friday all! 

It's That Time...

It's that time again.. another weigh-in has come and gone (aka it happened this morning.. lol).. and I'm also at the tail end of my "monthly visit".. which is what I'm blaming on the fact that I GAINED 2.2 lbs.. grr!

** UPDATE: So it looks like I can't count... because I actually LOST .8 lbs.. I didn't gain at all.. which makes me that much happier!!  **

Why is it that it makes me retain water like noone's business?!  But then again, I guess it'll give me better numbers next week.. lol.. hopefully!  I turned in my info for the Drop Dead Gorgeous by December challenge, and took my pic today.. and while I think I look like crap, that's not the point.. it's that I have something to gauge what I look like at the "beginning" of this challenge.. But I found a pic of me taken a few weeks before I started my personal challenge and wanted to post it up here.. 

Here I am.. the night of my sorority's formal.. The dress I am wearing hadn't fit in over a year (it's my bridesmaid's dress from my brother's wedding).. and I was super excited it did fit.. lol

And here is my pic for the Drop Dead Gorgeous by December pic.. Yep, I know.. I'm hot stuff.. lol.. but I can definitely tell I've lost weight in my face, and my waist has gotten smaller.. so I'm excited to see where this challenge and the other one I'm involved in, 30 Day Shred, will take me..

So I didn't get to go to the gym yesterday.. I'm disappointed because my body hurt so bad.. And I am not going to be able to go today either, due to time issues.. my goal is to go tomorrow and Sunday, especially Sunday, as I don't have to work.. :)

Oops!

Okay, so I forgot to blog my weight loss on Friday.. and then proceeded to have the worst weekend EVER!!  But I weighed in on Friday morning, and while it was a loss, I was kind of disappointed.. :( 

I'm now at 233.0 lbs!!

So I've lost a total of 17.7 lbs since I started.. and for not working out until yesterday, that's not bad.. yesterday was my first day back to the gym for good.. I am not going two months away from the gym again.. It can't happen.. So yesterday I went to the gym and walk/ran for 30 minutes.. 12.5 running, 17.5 walking.. and my body hurts in so many different places.. lol

But it was so worth it.. and today I'm going to the zumba class in a few minutes..  I've got to post pics of my before sometime soon, even if I don't want to.. lol.. what's the point of blogging if I don't want to see what I used to be, right?!  So I'm going to find one somewhere.. I'm sure I've got them all hidden somewhere.. 

Off I go to Zumba.. dance your ass off, indeed!  ;)

Jumping For Joy

Okay, so I woke up this morning (after a HORRIBLE night sleep) and almost ran down my stairs to go weigh myself.. and brush my teeth too of course.. lol.. and boy was I excited to see that I'd lost so much in a week (especially a week where I did such bad things on my diet).. 

I'm up to 15.9 lbs lost!!

I can't believe I lost another 3.7 lbs!!  And my scrub pants are hardly fitting anymore.. uh oh!  Time to go to the tailor (aka my Grandma) I'm getting there though.. but still, I'm going to have to step it up on the workout part.. I miss working out, and I've got to figure out a way to go in and have a job too.. which, I am running late for now.. lol

Have a good Friday!

better late than never, right?

okey doke.. so I totally missed blogging on here Friday, but I did remember to weigh myself that morning.. and I was pleasantly ECSTATIC! lol

i lost

12.3 LBS

in the past 2 weeks!!

WOOHOO!!  So on that note, I made my slimmer butt go to Zumba class Saturday morning.. and boy did I wonder how I could have not done this class for the past 2 months.. I missed it, and my body noticed that I hadn't done this in a while.. I was huffing and puffing before we'd been at it for 20 minutes.. and it's an hour long class.. plus, i absolutely LOVE the teacher for Saturday's class.. she kicks our butt!  

But I have found this awesome juice that tastes better than the regular stuff, and again, I was pleasantly surprised it tasted so good, because it's labelled as diet.. has only 2 carbs in it for an 8 oz glass!  Love it!  I drank half the bottle yesterday.. lol

So I had a dream last night about the mini marathon that I told Katie that I was gonna do with her.. and in my dream, it was March and I hadn't touched a treadmill yet.. lmao.. so I'm definitely gonna start going to the gym as much as possible now and make sure that I can run at least half of the mini.. if not the whole thing.. 

Hope y'all had a good weekend, and enjoy the rest of Sunday.. I'm gonna go eat my yummy breakfast now.. eggs and bacon!  Yum!

Almost been a week..

It has almost been a week since I started my FAB Challenge.. and my diet.. and I have to keep telling myself not to weigh myself tomorrow, because the majority of the weight supposedly comes off during the second, and final, week of the Induction for the Adkins Diet.. but I couldn't help myself and weighed myself just a few minutes ago..

According to my scale downstairs, I currently weigh 241.4 lbs!!  That means I've lost almost 9 lbs in 6 days!!  WOOHOO!! It's nice to know that this is working, as I feel like I could kill someone for a cupcake right now.. lol

I finally got my EA Sports Active and Just Dance games back from my friend in Seymour, and will prolly do the Just Dance game tonight to burn some calories.. I'm kinda dissapointed that I didn't get to make it to the gym this week at all, because I will be working all weekend until 6pm on Sunday.. and my gym closes at 5pm on Sunday.. :(

But I'm hoping that sometime during the next 3 days I will have the determination to get some kind of exercise.. like using the pool for something other than laying there, or walking/running around the neighborhood.. Monday though, I am so going to the gym!  lol.. I can't wait!  Oh Zumba, how I have missed you!  :)
 

OH!  Have I got to say how much I enjoyed my lunch today.. I ate at Wendy's and was encouraged to try their new salads.. I ate the Bacon Cobb salad (with cheddar cheese instead of bleu cheese) and it was DELICIOUS!!  I couldn't even finish it all in one sitting, it was so big..  Also bought a new bikini top to wear next summer!!  It's super cute and technically fits right now, but my belly is kinda wiggly in the bad way right now.. lol.. but it'll get put to good use this winter too I'm sure (kickin it in my brother's hot tub)..

Oops... Is it really Saturday already?

Oops.. so I totally missed Friday's blogging opportunity.. had WAY too much going on to think about writing on here.. but I started off the morning good diet-wise, but I totally forgot to weigh myself this morning..  No worries though.. I had a doctor's appointment on Friday, after I got off work..

According to the doctor, I weighed in at 250.3 lbs.. ugh!  I can deal with that I guess.. I just tell myself that it was at 3:45 pm and I was wearing scrubs and heavy tennis shoes.. lol.. anything to make myself feel better, right?!  I am really proud of myself though because usually I screw up the first day by forgetting to eat the right breakfast..

So I made sure to buy me some groceries to get me through the next week.. and my goal this week is to focus on my eating and learn how to cook salmon (without killing it).. Went out to eat with my sister-in-law Robbi last night.. we ate at Texas Roadhouse.. YUMMMMMMMMY!  :)

I was so hungry by that time that I surprised even myself.. I ordered an 11 oz sirloin, green beans, and a house salad.. I figured I'd get all but some of the steak eaten.. boy, was I wrong.. I ate every last bite, plus some of my sister-in-law's salad.. Ate way too much though because on the way home I got so tired I couldn't really think of doing too much..  but at least it was healthy stuff.. kinda..

So today I had to work again, like yesterday, and it started good.. my client's daughter makes breakfast on Saturday's, so I'm stoked!  Eggs, bacon, and I don't have to make it?!  That makes me a happy girl..  The downside to my day?!  MAKING CARROT CAKE!!!! Now, I don't like carrot cake.. can't stand the idea of a veggie in something still being considered a cake.. hehe.. but it's the whole point of having to ignore the sugar, the icing, the pineapple.. I wanted to eat that pineapple SOOOOO badly.. but I didn't, which I'm proud of..

Trying to think of what to eat for dinner tonight.. I'm thinking smoked turkey sausage and cabbage.. i <3 cabbage!