Giveaway Update..

Well, as of 7pm, I am stuck at 97 followers.. Once I reach 100 followers, I will go to random.org to do the drawing for 5 lucky winners.. AND the 100 follower will win a prize too..  

Right now, I have three DEFINITE prizes to give away.. the other 3, I'm still up in the air on.. I'm thinking fun stuff, but as I'm on a budget, it can't be TOO expensive.. lol.. sorry, but it's true.. 

So, for three of the giveaways, I have:

No explanation needed, I think.. :)

A 1 Year Subscription to Fitness Magazine..

 

A 1 Year Subscription to Self Magazine..

The other three, I'm still working on.. I'm hoping to have them figured out by tomorrow night though, as I'll have time to go shopping.. :)

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Sabrina over at Sabrina is on the move! is doing a giveaway too!  Hers is for the Hungry Girl 300 under 300 cookbook!  I know I want to win that book, and you probably would too.. So check out her giveaway entry.. it's really simple to enter.. :)

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Tomorrow is my weigh in, and I came home to make sure I got it in on my own scale (well, that's one reason.. I also missed my momma).. I'm hoping that my munching and my TOM hasn't screwed up my progress.. I am really hoping I DON'T see a gain.. and since I had to work late today, I didn't get a chance to go to the gym.. But I plan to go tomorrow before I go to see my BFF up north for the day.. :)

Oh, but I did sign up for a Virtual 5k hosted by Running Mate and Race Ready.. I found it on Facebook.. you can find it here.. It's called The "Bunny Hop" Virtual 5k.. Cute, huh?!  It's on April 9th, which is a Saturday.. I'm planning to do mine later than the scheduled time (as I don't get off work til 6pm), but I think it doesn't really matter.. lol

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OH YEAH! CA over at Fat, Angry Blog gave me the Versatile Blogger award.. while I've gotten it before, it's still just as special because I know that I've kept my versatility.. :)  So thank you CA!  I appreciate it.. I will post tomorrow the things I'm supposed to do with the award..

Talk About A Roller Coaster..

Well, I'm back.. but not for a good update.. just an FYI, this post will have a few TMI moments.. lol.. had to put it like that.. ;)

It's that TOM for me, and this month is a doozy.. not only is it later in the month (it usually hits me around the 15th), I can't seem to get past the salt craving! grr!  honestly, if I could get something that was 0 calories, crunchy and salty, I'd be in heaven.. lol.. but that's not reality.. so I've eaten tortilla chips (and salsa), and pretzel sticks since my last entry.. I'm disgusted with myself.. ugh!

So I called my gym to find out what movie they are playing in the cardio theater, and they said Charlie St. Cloud!  WHAT?!  Who wants to run and cry???  Good Lord (sorry, there's no way around it for me), I don't know if it makes me want to go to the gym more or not at all now.. but I'm taking the first one.. and I'd consider that a good point of my day..

Oh, did I mention that when I went to try my clients Total Gym, I realized that he either doesn't have any of the attachments or I just have no idea where they are.. lol.. I drug it out of the corner it was in and went to look for the pully-thing and it's no where to be found.. so I pushed it back into the corner and ate some salty crap..

I'm off to shave my legs (bc I only brought capris with me) and go to the gym.. yay.. I will end this day on a good note.. :)

Where Did March Go?!

Seriously, I think everyone is probably asking themselves that right now.. Is it SERIOUSLY already March 30th?!  And where is the damn Spring weather?!  (this last one is asked by me every day, dag nab it! lol).. So as March ends and April begins, I am setting my goals for the month.. because I haven't been doing as much as I could be doing, so I need something to push me..

April Goals:

** I want to see 20? on that scale by the end of April **

** I will NOT allow myself to "forget" my Virginia plans for the end of the month **

** I will boost my savings back up **

** I will start trying new workouts like I wanted to in the beginning of this journey **

These aren't too hard sounding.. the first one the hardest, but it's not impossible.. technically, it would only take 12 lbs to get to 209..  and that's based on LAST weeks weigh-in.. hopefully I'll show some good numbers this week.. and as I write this, I'm thinking "Whatever.. you haven't lifted a finger in the past three days"..
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Well, I'm up to 97 followers.. 3 more and then we'll do a giveaway.. :)  I promise to post tomorrow about all I plan to giveaway.. I'm gonna stick with the 5 different things (that doesn't include the 100th follower's gift).. so comment away.. :) 

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Thanks to all the new followers that have posted their blog addresses on my comments.. I will be checking them all out later tonight.. I'm off to go try my clients Total Body Gym thingy.. let's hope I don't kill myself or pull my arm out of socket.. hehe

Holy Cow!! 95 Followers?! REALLY?! and Giveaways

Seriously, I'm surprised I haven't lost all of you over time.. Sometimes I wonder who I'm kidding (I think we all have a moment or two like this, I just have them a lot.. like when I can't seem to get this weight loss thing), and then I realize that I CAN DO THIS!  It's not supposed to be easy, and really, when has my life EVER been easy over the age of 15.. lol

This is an uphill battle right now.. and it will be for a while.. I'm so glad I have you all to leave me comments.. honestly, when I'm down, I come on here to read some of the uplifting stuff you all say.. :)

So thank you!  And to all the newer followers (aka if you started following within the past 3 months or so), please leave me a comment with your blog address in it, so I can return the favor.. As stalker-ish as this sounds, I love to follow my followers.. hehe.. plus, right now, I have nothing better to do than to catch up on new people..

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Like I said in an earlier post, I plan to do a giveaway when I reach 100 followers.. Right now, I'm thinking of how many things I can afford to giveaway (I'm thinking of 5 different things as of now..) and while I wish I had thought to do this for 50 followers, whoever the 100th follower is will win something too.. so 6 giveaways total.. and guess what?!  You only have to do one thing to win........

Post a comment on one of my entries this month.. that's it!  Anyone who follows me on Twitter knows I don't know what the hell I'm doing, so I really don't want anyone else to think the same thing.. lol.. and if you want to follow me on FB, more power to ya, but the ONLY requirement is to leave ONE comment on any of my March blog entries..

If you already have, then guess what?!  You are in!  One entry per person.. and of course, the winners will be chosen by random.. :)  So comment away.. I'll put up the prizes you can win by Thursday..

House Sitting..

Well, as I sit here in my clients house after a rough night's sleep, I really wish I could go back to sleep.. lol.. he has a tempurpedic bed, which I was excited to sleep on.. now, not so much.. I'm hoping it's just because my bed sucks in comparison.. but we'll see..

On a different note, a more TMI note, Aunt Flo has made an appearance.. ugh! and my face has decided that it wants to totally go crazy while "she" is here.. double ugh!  I'm hoping that is why I didn't show better numbers on Friday, but sadly I know this Friday is going to be worse.. so here's hoping that I can keep the water off.. :)

I'm off to work.. Hope you all have a TERRIFIC Tuesday.. ;)

Oops, I Forgot Something..

My earlier entry had in the title something about Friend Makin Monday.. and I totally got caught up in the other stuff and forgot to do it.. so here I am!  Let's do this.. :)

 FMM: A Few More Gender-Friendly Questions

1) What is your favorite physical feature?  I'd have to say my smile.. I don't have a perfect smile, but it's mine and it's real (90% of the time).. :)

2) List three adjectives that describe you. forgetful, smart, romantic

3) How old were you when you had your first kiss? I was like 6, I think.. I remember it was with this boy Kenny.. We were hiding behind a pine tree.. and yes, I really do remember this.. :)

4) Do you believe in God? Yes.. I sure do..

5) How often do you watch the news? I try to stay away from the news, actually.. I hate all the bad stuff that it shows me.. I do look at the news online sometimes, or listen to the radio news.. and I read the newspaper when I have the chance (mostly on weekends)..

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Well, I got home and checked my email.. and found that I was beaten in this weeks round of March Madness.. :(  Seeing as I somehow only lost .4 lbs last week, I wasn't surprised at all.. lol.. but it was fun while it lasted, right?!  :)

March Madness and Friend Makin Monday!

Yesterday I forgot to make another entry about what I'd gotten on Saturday while I was gone.. ugh!  My invitation to my 10 year reunion came in the mail that day.. I say ugh because I'm NO WHERE near where I thought I'd be by now.. not just weight wise, but that's the highest on the list.. I'm still going, but only because I want to see some friends that are coming in for it.. 

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Today is the end of Week 2 of Katie's March Madness tournament.. I can't wait to figure out if I made it to the "Final Four".. :)  I'll post an update as soon as I know, but here's my weigh in for it..

221.2 lbs

Sadly, I have no recollection of what my weigh in was for last monday.. I'm hoping that Katie has an idea of what it was (she's good like that).. 

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Today is day 1 of my house sitting.. this should be fun.. I'll get to go to the gym during the day, instead of at night.. and since I'm not doing Zumba right now, I am definitely gonna go earlier.. :)

OH!  Did I mention that I've got 93 followers?!  93!  I'm shocked!  I figured once I reach 100 followers I'll have a giveaway.. I've been thinking of some things to give away.. so to get to those 100 followers, I'm gonna participate in Kenzie's Friend Making Mondays later today..

Well, I'm off to go eat breakfast.. Hope you all had a great weekend and have a great Monday!

Race Day Recap..

Well, I know you all have been chomping at the bit waiting for this post.. and I apologize for keeping ya waiting.. but I was SO exhausted after the race yesterday (and the drive back) that I just stayed in bed the rest of the day.. lol

Let's start from the beginning, shall we?!

In case you have no idea what race I'm talking about, I'll fill ya in.. I had found a 5k race for the Indiana University Chapter of Habitat for Humanity.. and I figured it'd be something that Katie and Blubeari might be interested in doing with me.. So I let them know, and they were in.. :)  It was in Bloomington, Indiana, which is about 90 miles north of where I'm at.. Katie drove over to me, then I drove us up to Bloomington.. 

I packed most of my stuff the night before, got my "outfit" ready (don't wanna forget anything important.. aka my sports bra) and made sure my iPod was charging.. I even made a special playlist to listen to.. I decided to take only my wallet and inhaler(instead of my whole purse).. wanna guess what I forgot??  Yeah, my iPod stayed in the charging dock.. and my debit card and license were in my purse.. SHIT!

Honestly, I thought that the race was supposed to start at 9am.. So Katie got here a little before 6:30am, and we left.. We stopped for gas/food/bathrooms pretty early, because it was 20 cents/gallon cheaper in Seymour.. that's when I realized I'd left my debit card at home.. after finding out that I was basically screwed, Katie loaned me the money (she's so sweet!).. So we got to Bloomington a few minutes after 8am.. We were worried that something was up when we saw that they were JUST putting up the signs when we got there.. and then I looked at the tickets and saw that it started at 10am, not 9am.. ugh!!

So Katie said something about the playground, and we drove over there to play a little.. :)  There was this HUGE jungle gym that we walked around in, this huge rope thing that Katie went up.. I was too chicken to try.. lol.. and then we swung a little, among a few other things.. 

This thing HAD to be 20 feet high..

So we started the race, and I honestly can't believe I lasted through a whole 5k with NO music.. but I did.. and while it was touch and go for a bit (the whole second mile was uphill, damn it!), I finished under the 45 minute goal I had set for myself..  I finished at 40:12.. and for my first 5k, I'm okay with that.. I have tons of races to improve with.. :)

Katie, thankfully, got a pic of me crossing the finish line.. :)

Me before the race.. with my brother's
hoodie on, you can't tell I've lost
any weight at all.. lol

Right before they fired the starting gun..

My race bib.. I'm gonna make a scrapbook
collage thingy to commemerate it.. :)

I had a blast, all in all.. my thighs were killing me, and I had to use my inhaler twice afterwards, but I didn't keel over, and my ankle wasn't hurting after.. yay!! 

Weigh In..

I was anticipating a gain.. honestly, I've only been counting calories for two days (today is three of course), and before that, I was kinda going nuts with the gummy candies.. but I was pleasantly suprised..

221.4 lbs

-0.4 lbs

While it's not much, I'll definitely take it.. It's a step in the right direction.. AND I'm still under 225, which has been a struggle for me in the past.. Looks like me and Hannah (from Biggest Loser) both broke through that damn wall!  WOOHOO!!

Today is a test for me.. I'm going up to my BFF's house, and I always end up eating poorly when I'm up there.. so I'm eating breakfast now, and I'm bringing some snacky food.. Not to mention the fact that I somehow was up for almost two hours earlier.. ugh!  My body, for the past two days, has decided that around 3:30am (after between 4 and 5 hours of sleep) that I'm good to go for the day.. yeah, not cool.. lol

Good Night and Good-Bye..

No, I'm not going anywhere.. but my bra is.. hehe

Thanks to Sabrina @ Sabrina Is On The Move!, I have gotten two new bras.. I blogged about them here.. one I wear everyday (and found out that Christina Aguilera wears the exact same one in Burlesque!), and the other I have been wearing to the gym.. Well, I have an older version of the one I wear to the gym.. which has finally bugged me WAY too much, and is now going into the trash.. It's lasted me about 1 1/2 years.. honestly, I love Victoria's Secret bras.. :)

Did I mention that it's too big anyways?

see the stitching that I did to keep it together?
I loved it THAT much.. lol

Yeah, it's warped.. lol

Good-bye, wonderful bra..
You worked SO well.. :)

Well, now that that is done.. I'm off to bed before I give in to my hunger.. Good night!  Oh, and did I mention tomorrow is my WI day?!  :)

Donuts and Catch Up..

haha.. doesn't that sound like donuts and ketchup?  ;)

So as you can probably guess, I succumbed to donuts today.. and I say that in plural because I am an idiot.. plain and simple.. I went to work and was a little hungry.. I went to Jimmy John's for my client and what's right next to it?!  Krispy Kreme.. and I had the intention of getting ONLY a glazed donut.. I was willing to cop to eating A donut.. but then the little ones looked good.. so I changed my order..... or so I thought.. I get out the door, and realize that I got the donut AND the donut holes.. ugh!  and my fatty brain of course is like "just eat them all.. you're going to the gym later.. you'll burn it off.."  

That's something I need to stop telling myself, "you can eat this CRAP, you're going to the gym later".. and I know it's going to be a daily challenge.. the only victory I count in this day is that I didn't talk myself out of going to the gym.. all bc of those damn donut holes.. but I'm still disappointed with myself.. No more Krispy Kreme (didn't I say that last time?).. In general, I ate a lot of food today, compared to yesterday.. I ate a big(ger) breakfast, which I won't be doing again..and then the donuts..  and sadly I'm hungry right now.. but I told myself that I'm supposed to go to bed a little hungry.. 

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I went to the gym, like I said before.. and I was excited to get on the treadmill.. I'm sad to say I couldn't push myself through a 5k.. but I did get 2 miles ran in 25 minutes.. I'll consider that a victory.. especially since I haven't ran in 6 days.. tomorrow morning, before I go to my friends house, I plan to run for 10 minutes outside.. this way I won't be so shocked by the crappy weather on Saturday..

I got a reminder email for Saturday.. I'm getting super excited.. I can't wait!  This 5k, no matter if I run it or walk it, will be a success.. :)

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OH!  Forgot the catch up part.. I somehow missed last week's Biggest Loser.. gotta love technology.. you depend on it, and it always lets ya down.. ;)  BUT, I am watching this past episode.. and I am definitely gonna go find last weeks after this one.. lol

Low Carb No More..

This one is a little allover the place.. so bear with me.. lol

After staying under my calories yesterday, I looked again at my breakdown of calories.. I went from a low carb diet to a diet FULL of carbs.. How in the world did I live on a low-carb diet?!  I ate over 200 grams of carbs yesterday.. and today I have already eaten 80 grams.. what?!

Today is my "d-day".. I hope my ankle withstands my run later.. I'm scared it won't.. But I'm hopeful.. :)

I'm looking into the PB2 that Vegan Chick Pea had told me about..  It's got less fat and calories than regular peanut butter.. But you have to order it in a 4 pk, and I don't have the money to get it until next week (it's like 15 for a 4 pk).. I hope it tastes edible (I'm okay with it tasting different).. lol..

Anyone ever had a deep tissue massage?  They hurt a little, but usually in a good way.. and my massage last week was just that.. and I've got the bruises to prove it.. ugh!  I've noticed bruises in the weirdest places, like on the side of my thigh, the middle of my calf, on the top of my wrist.. and I can only explain them with the massage.. Honestly, as good as if felt, I prolly will never get a deep tissue one again.. lol

Calling It A Day..

It's 10pm.. and after trying to get somewhat close to my 2000 calories, I'm calling it a day at 1893.. I cannot imagine eating another damn thing.. lol.. Wanna see all that I ate?  Well, if ya don't, scroll down.. :)

1 medium banana

1 chocolate & oats high fiber bar

1 CB biscuit

5 CB grilled chicken tenders

1 cup corn

1 serving CB hashbrown casserole

1 serving CB summer veggie medley

1/2 wild salmon filet

1/8 cup of 1% milk (for my tea)

2 clementines

1 serving goldfish crackers

1 Light & Fit blueberry yogurt

1 pack of Swiss Cake Rolls

4 Lightly Salted rice cakes

SEE?!  That's a SHIT TON of food!  and the last three things, I had to make myself eat.. lol.. but I looked up the ideal percentages to eat, and I came pretty close.. I was worried I was eating too many carbs but while it's on the high side of the scale, it's not above..  

Carbs: 56%

Protein: 19%

Fat: 25%

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I went to the gym today.. I say it that way because I REALLY wanted to talk myself out of it.. but I didn't allow myself to get out of it.. yay me.. :)  I did 25 minutes on the elliptical (which I'm not a fan of anymore) and then did 35 minutes of Zumba.. my ankle started to twinge a little, so I left before it got any worse.. I've noticed my enthusiasm for Zumba has really been lacking recently.. I honestly don't have any excitement towards Zumba anymore.. I used to love it.. and I will prolly use the Zumba Wii game, but I honestly don't think I'll be going to any more classes for now..

I'm definitely raring to go running.. and I can honestly say that I miss it.. so hopefully tomorrow I can try running tomorrow and have good news to report back.. :)  I know there was something else to write about, but I am just too tired right now.. TTFN..

Getting To Know You.. or Me!

Age: 27
Bed Size: Full
Chore You Hate: Mowing the lawn
Dogs: unfortunately, no
Essential Start of Your Day: taking my ADHD and anxiety meds 
Favorite Color: Pink
Gold or Silver: Silver
Height: 5'10"
Instruments I Play: None now (I used to play the flute and clarinet)
Job Title: Home Health Aide
Kids: None
Live: Southern Indiana
Mom's Name: Shelley
Nicknames: Princess, Baby
Overnight Hospital Stays: Only one, to my knowledge.. for my cleft lip surgery
Pet Peeve: people that blow cigarette smoke into non-smokers faces
Right or Left Handed: Right
Siblings: One younger brother
Time You Wake Up: I'm usually up daily by 8am.. when I'm off work, I try to sleep til 10am
Underwear: most of the time, i wear 'cheeky' pairs.. no matter what, they come from Victorias Secret
Veggie You Dislike: spinach or brussel sprouts
What Makes You Run Late: my love of sleep and TRAFFIC!  grr
X-Rays You Have Had: ummmm.. ankle, back, (more than likely) face
Yummy Food You Make: chicken with cheese and peppers
Zoo Animal You Like Best: penguin

So Far, So Good..

Well, today is Day 1.. Day 1 of counting calories, that is.. and so far, so good..

I divided up the Goldfish crackers (which I LOVE!) into baggies of 30g, which is 140 calories.. and that is enough of them to curb my salty/crunchy craving..

My trip to Cracker Barrel was interesting.. I tried looking online for calorie values of certain things.. and came up EMPTY!  Isn't it against some law not to have calorie values available?  I figured a place as popular as Cracker Barrel would have this handy.. was I wrong or what?!  lol

So I went with the knowledge that veggies (well duh) were good and fried stuff was bad (another duh).. and I did pretty well, I think..  I got the grilled chicken tenders (without my normal ranch dunking sauce), with corn (forgot they had green beans), their new summer veggie medley (TOTALLY yummy!), and hashbrown casserole.. the last one could have been 1000 calories and I'd still have ate it.. not really, but I usually get it no matter what.. lol.. I ate 1 biscuit (and for me, that's saying a lot).. I am calling this trip out a SUCCESS!  and I was surprisingly full for a long time afterwards.. usually I still THINK I'm hungry an hour after eating there.. but not today..  :)

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Today's trip to the gym is in the air right now.. We're supposed to be getting REALLY bad weather around here in the next few hours.. if it's still bad by 6pm, I'm going straight home.. and I'm not sure if I WANT to go to the gym.. I'm afraid that I won't be able to resist running on the treadmill, which I'm going to try tomorrow.. But I want to give my ankle one more day to "rest"..

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So the calorie counting thing is still confusing to me.. For me to lose 1 pound a week, do I really get 2300 (almost put a $ in front of it.. lol) calories if I am somewhat active?!  I've only eaten 1040 calories as of now, and I can't imagine trying to eat another 1300 calories in the next 6 hours.. I can honestly say it would take some effort to eat that much..  So I'm sticking with the 2000 calories for now, and I'll re-evaluate in a few weeks.. I realize this is going to be a change, and it might not be easy.. but life isn't easy (I need to realize this daily.. lol) and I need to give my body a chance to adjust..

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Yesterday I checked the weather forecast for Saturday and I saw that it's supposed to have a high of 45 degrees up in Bloomington.. and a 60% chance of rain.. ugh!  Guess I'll get to try out that cold weather gear that I got for Christmas before next year.. :)  I don't care if it's snowing (well, ya know what I mean), I am going to do this 5k.. I want to get that first one under my belt.. 

Let's Do This..

Alright, so I started my day off with a trip to the grocery store.. not the brightest idea, since I was hungry, but I think I did pretty good.. and I was seriously disappointed by how many calories things were..  I kept thinking of calories in terms of dollars.. I have $2000 a day to spend on food.. Is it really worth saving $40?  HELL YES!  lol..

Is it just me, or are Lightly Salted Rice Cakes the best thing EVER?!  I love them!  They are my potato chips.. two of them last me just as long and have less calories.. :)   And I couldn't resist getting more clementines (thanks to everyone's praise of them, I have jumped on the cutie bandwagon.. hehe).. 

I made sure to get some oatmeal to eat on days like today, when I don't work until the afternoon.. On the days that I do work in the mornings, I got the high fiber bars and fruit.. Like today's breakfast was only 250 calories (because I plan to eat a bigger lunch at Cracker Barrel), and I ate one of the bars and a banana..  Did I mention that I didn't even make it out of the parking lot before breaking open my banana.. lol

I'm off to go look at Cracker Barrel's menu to see what is worth giving up my "money" for.. :)

Today= BIG FAIL!

Okay, so today, as per the title, sucked ASS!  I woke up, and chillaxed too long this morning.. so I was SOL (shit outta luck, for those who don't know what that means) for breakfast.. had to be at work at 9am for a new client.. and what did I eat while I was there?  Reese's Peices.. one of those $1 boxes.. ugh!

Then I ate Mike 'n Ike's while at my normal clients house.. double ugh!  So by the time I got home, I prolly have eaten 1200 calories of plain junk.. :(

But it stopped there.. I have eaten 4 medium chicken tenders since getting home.. and I'm making a shopping list for Friday.. because I'm out of the important stuff, fruits and veggies..  That's not good.. I hope today is just a fluke (as I've been having a bad day).. but that's not an excuse.. it's just a fact.. 

I have been told that I am too honest.. and most of the time I don't think that's a bad thing.. Well, this is MY blog.. so I'm planning to air whatever I want on here..  I haven't talked to Chris in 3 days.. and after thinking about some stuff, I'm done.. I'm not sure what's going on, but at this point, I just don't care anymore.. So, no more Chris.. so, all you guys out there reading this, I'm AVAILABLE!!  lol

So, on the way home from work, I decided to finally look up fatsecret.com and myfitnesspal.com.. after looking at both of them, I've decided to go with fatsecret.com for now.. I signed up and was shocked when it said how many calories I should be eating a day.. 2600!  WHAT?!  That sounds like WAY too much to me.. So I'm gonna see if I can stay below 2000, and if I find I'm starving by the end of the day, I'll figure out how many to add.. 

Well, I'm off to go read some blogs.. :)

Vitamins..

I picked this picture because of all the bright colors.. lol

We all hear about how we need certain vitamins.. recently there's been a lot of talk about how certain vitamins are better if they are taken with other vitamins.. like Calcium isn't absorbed as well if it's taken without Magnesium and Zinc.. but that's not to say that it's not absorbed at all without them.. so what to do?!  Honestly, how many vitamin supplements are too much??

My client takes 100's of supplements a day.. yes, he has MS.. no, he doesn't take any of the drugs to help with his MS.. but he takes all of these throughout the day.. The question I always think of is "Do any of those things interract with eachother?"  I know the Glucosamine Chondroitin that I take says on the bottle to not take it with any other supplement.. and unfortunately, that means that I usually forget to take it..

Do you take vitamin supplements?  We are told that all of us with ongoing weight loss should take a multivitamin, but which one is "better" for us?  My mom takes fish oil and a multivitamin.. I take a multivitamin and a collagen pill (along with my daily meds)..

I heard Dr. Oz say once that there are certain times in the day where it's better to take vitamins.. but seriously, who has the time to make the extra effort of taking them seperately AND at a random time?  He said that the best time to take your calcium supplements was before bed (around 10pm).. something about your blood pressure (in a negative way).. so of course, I listened.. and freaked out a bit.. lol

But I honestly don't remember to take them, let alone the other ones.. and these are the ones that have more than one pill.. and they ain't small, neither (in my best country hick accent).. ;)

So my question to you all: What kind of supplements, if any, do you take??

Confidence Book is Almost Finished!!

Soooooo, I totally forgot to mention that over the weekend (at my hellish client's house) I almost finished my confidence book!!  Pictures are loaded into it.. and I originally was going to just put the pics in and be done with it, but some of the pics are so small that there is TONS of room left on some of the pages..  My plan is to now put a few blurbs about how I felt at the time of the picture.. 

Take a look.. Let me know what ya think.. :)

Got this at Hobby Lobby.. it's pretty sturdy..

I put in some "I Did It!" success
stories from Fitness magazine..

Thanks to you all for giving me some quotes..
I've got all sorts of quotes in this thing.. :)

Tons of pictures.. from
my previous skinny days..

Words I want to live by..

I may not love Jillian Michaels,
but she has some great quotes..

To the left is the space where I'll put the extra stuff..
Just to make it a little prettier.. :)

Thank Goodness It's Monday.. **UPDATED**

Yep, I really did just put that as my title.. and I totally feel that way.. this past weekend was HORRIBLE!  and while some of it was of my own doing, most of it was bc of the clients I was working with.. ugh! 

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Friday was fun, bc I got to see Chris.. We saw Limitless with Bradley Cooper in it.. Ooo, buddy, did they make him look super ugly in the beginning.. lol.. but it was a pretty cool movie.. the concept is interesting.. Would you take a pill that made you able to access 100% of your brain, without knowing the side effects?  My question is: If you would, what would you do while on it?

The only thing I liked about the weekend was that I got to see Blubeari.. We had tea and had a good talk.. other than that, it sucked ass!!  The clients I had over the weekend (a man and wife) were a last-minute thing.. I am there for the wife and while the work is super easy, the verbal abuse SUCKS!  The husband critisizes EVERYTHING we do.. and his wife, with her disease, is picking up his bad habits.. So Sunday, I dealt with 10 hours of verbal abuse.. and while I do stand up for myself, even the best person gets sick of it after a while..

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Well, it's March Madness Monday here.. and it's the Week 1 weigh in.. I had hoped that my weight loss (2.8 lbs since last Monday) would help me make the cut for week two.. Oh, and I am in the North section, not the South.. lol.. not sure how I screwed that up.. but I sent in my percentage to Katie and about 3 hours ago, she sent out the new bracket.. I got it, and I saw my name on Week 2!  WOOHOO!  I made it!! 

I'll post the new bracket when I get home tonight (I'm on my clients laptop, and it doesn't like pics)..

I'm hoping to go to the gym tonight.. I'm not sure what I'm going to do while I'm at the gym, but it won't be Zumba or running (as much as I hate to say that last one).. but if I'm going to run in my first 5k on Saturday, I want to be able to try to run all of it.. :)

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So I went to the gym.... to tan.. but I'm planning to try out my Shake Weight tonight.. so I'm sure I'll have sore arms tomorrow.. :)   And here is the bracket for week 2 of the MMWI..  lol.. bring it on, Amy and Stephanie.. ;)

So me, Blubeari, and Katie are all doing this 5k up in Bloomington, IN.. it's for the IU Chapter of Habitat for Humanity.. I can't wait!  I just hope we get t-shirts.. we registered late, so we aren't guaranteed to get one.. :(

Shocking!!

Okay, so after all the indecision and carbs of this week, I was NOT expecting so see a loss.. honestly, I was perfectly happy if I just didn't gain.. well, we'll just say I was shocked!  Stepped on the scale this morning to see that the scale was my friend.. :)

221.8 lbs

-2.6 lbs

I'm not sure how the hell that happened.. All I can say is that with this number, I am definitely going with running 5 days a week, even if it's for only 10 minutes.. Because that's the only form of exercise that makes me sweat PROFUSELY!!  I love sweating... in the gym! lol..

Well, I'm off to work.. I hope you all have a great Friday.. I know mine is starting off on a GREAT note..

Determined and Dangerous..

Hello bloggy friends.. :)

Here I am, in one piece, after this interesting day..  I always wonder if I'm gonna be one of the unlucky ones that get in a car accident by the dumb asses that drink and drive.. paranoia, I know.. but we all have our random thoughts.. lol.. So I went to work, like normal.. and while the people on I-64 were sadly stuck behind a 7 car pile-up, I was smooth-sailing through traffic.. yay me!  I had hoped to get out of work around 12:30, like normal on Thursdays, but that wasn't the case today.. 

Did I mention I had a massage scheduled at 1pm today?!  I was livid.. I even asked her last night if she could make sure to come home by 12:45.. no response.. ugh!  So I literally called at 1pm to let them know that I wouldn't be able to make it, and luckily I got it rescheduled for 5:30 today!  YAY!!  So I went to work at my client, which consisted of doing some dishes and going to the park.. lol.. and he let me go at 5pm.. I barely made it (thanks to rush hour traffic), but it was WONDERFUL!!  I felt like jello afterwards, and my ankle wasn't hurting at all.. she said that it looked kinda swollen compared to my left one.. 

I almost talked myself out of going to the gym.. ALMOST, but not quite.. ;)  I went like a good girl and did the 5k.. and ran all but .5 miles of it!!!!!!!!  I'm super proud of myself.. to say the least.. so here's my "workout summary" for the Vegan Chick Pea St. Patty's Day 5k.. :)

I burned 524 calories in 41 minutes and 45 seconds.. ran 2.6 miles, walked .5.. I'm so happy with myself for getting through this.. :)

Part Irish, All Trouble.. You got that right!!

Me, after my hellish workout.. by this time, my ankle was throbbing so badly, but I felt my runner's high, so I could care less.. lol.. as soon as I got home, I grabbed a bag of french fries and plopped on the couch..  Then I realized I haven't eaten very much today.. uh oh!  Dinner was pretty good, I'd say.. I need to go grocery shopping, but I did good with what I had.. lol

Spagetti O's and 'Just For One' Broccoli and Cheese

I got a Cadburry egg from the store.. I can't resist these things.. so I got one.. and that's all I need.. :)  Well, I'm off to go take a shower and then bed.. Hope you all had a great St. Patty's Day.. :)

Well, That Sucked..

As you can tell from the title, my gym trip was crappy!  I went in there, guns blazing (so to speak, of course) and put my clothes on.. went into the Cardio Theater, and started my 5 minute warm up... got through it, then started running at 4.5 mph's.. I lasted a whole 3.5 minutes before I started getting pains in my right ankle.. 

Body: Feel that?!  Your ankle is hurting.. can ya just stop right now!?

Brain: No flipping way! Only 3.5 minutes?!  Not stopping yet!

Body: I'm in some pain.. please stop before it gets annoying..

Brain: Nope!  I am not stopping til I get my 10 minutes in..

Body: Well, I guess we can last a few more minutes..

Brain: YOU BETTER BELIEVE IT!!  GRRRR!

Honestly, that's mostly what I was thinking.. I pushed myself to get those 10 minutes of running in.. and while I was pissed that I had to stop, I was proud of myself for getting the 10 minutes in.. But I could barely do a cool down (I got in about 2.5 minutes in) because my ankle hurt.. and when I say hurt, I mean that it was a sharp pain.. I didn't want to push too hard and possibly injure it more, but I know my own limits.. 

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Well, as of tomorrow morning, I will have registered for my first official 5k.. in MINNESOTA!  lol.. The Challenge Hearts & Minds 5k is on Memorial Day weekend in Minneapolis/St.Paul and my blogging friend Sabrina tuned me into it, and I'm definitely game.. :)

With my ankle issue, I am still planning to do the Virtual St. Patricks Day 5k that Vegan Chick Pea is hosting.. I will try to run as much of it as possible, but again, I don't wanna hurt myself more.. so we'll see.. but I plan to wear my green tomorrow (don't wanna get pinched!) and I will take a pic of my time like I'm supposed to.. :)  And of course, I will post the same pics up here later tomorrow..

Summer Lovin' and Plan Makin'..

The sun has finally came out from our long bout of rain.. THANK GOD!!  And it's gotten me to thinking about my New Years "plans" to make this year awesome! 

** For years, I have wanted to visit Virginia Beach, Virginia and see my old stomping ground.. and while I am in the area (aka the state), I also want to go to Busch Gardens and to Arlington and visit both my grandfather's graves.. They are both buried there and I've never been, sadly..  This is prolly gonna end up being a 3 or 4 day "weekend"..

** My grandfather on my mom's side has a Naval Retention building named after him, and I have wanted to see it since it's opening ceremony.. since I was in school when it was opened, I wasn't able to go.. but now that I have a car that could make it to there and back (plus a few miles.. lol), I plan to go for a weekend.. Go there, maybe hit Chicago on the way back down and stay for a day..

** One of my BFF's lives in Michigan (up by the Upper Peninsula), and I haven't visited up there since I had my Cavalier (which has been like 5 years).. I've barely seen her since, unless she comes down here (which she has, thankfully).. Since I remember having such a great time the last time I went up, I plan to go up there again this summer.. I'm hoping this will end up being a 4 day trip (not including travel time), but we're still working on the details..

** Sabrina over at Sabrina is on the Move! invited me to go to Minneapolis/St. Paul 5k she is running on Memorial Day weekend with a whole group of bloggers.. and I'm hoping to accept.. as soon as I get confirmation that she's DEFINITELY going, I'm gonna start looking into how much it's gonna cost to get there..

Basically, all these plans are with me generally driving my car.. and all these plans are based on gas prices NOT getting to the $5 mark.. I'm sure it'll still end up cheaper to drive vs. fly, but still.. ugh!

Well, I'm off to the gym in a little bit.. hoping to stay the whole time this time.. Monday, I had the ankle issue.. :(

Set Back.. and Glee

So I did make it to the gym, but it was only to tan.. I know, I'm stupid.. I regret the decision, and it won't (hopefully) happen again.. all I can say is that I got less than 5 hours of sleep, which I'm not used to, and I was exhausted by 7pm..

I went to American Eagle for my mom, went to the gym to tan, and went straight home.. By then, it was a little after 8 and all I wanted to do was go to bed.. so I turned on CSI:NY and did just that.. I was asleep by 9:15.. YAY!!

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Okay, so this morning was another Wednesday like last week.. No kiddos!  And I love sleeping in!!  I slept until 10 this morning!  WOOHOO!  So I WILL be going to the gym today.. and I will be tanning AFTER I do Zumba.. hehe

Last night I found a new food that I love.. I had bought a thing of "Carb Balance" tortillas for when I was on Atkins.. and never used them.. Not sure why, but I think I was worried how they'd taste (usually anything carb-friendly tastes like cardboard).. but these things taste WONDERFUL!  They are 120 calories, 3.5 fat grams, and 11 grams of fiber.. 

I'm gonna have to get reduced ANYTHING peanut butter (as we know how much I LOVE peanut butter), because I have a problem eating 180 calories for two tablespoons of peanut butter.. because who can use ONLY two tablespoons of peanut butter WILLINGLY.. lol.. 

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So all in all, I'd put yesterday in the Fail column.. It was a worthy try, but it made me realize I have NO IDEA what things are worth "calorie-wise" anymore.. because one of these PB wraps is DEFINITELY NOT worth 300 calories and 18 grams of fat.. ugh!  and I ate one of these for breakfast.. but at least it was only one, right?!  I ate two last night.. :(

But I'm learning.. and I plan to continue to learn.. until I get this thing right..

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On a totally GREAT note.. I have succumbed to the Twitter Nation.. lol.. so follow me @fabchallenge, if ya want.. as I really have no idea what I'm doing.. hehe

New way, new results..

Alrighty, so today is not day 1.. as I still have not become totally certain what I am going to do (counting calories hard-core vs trying to stay around a general caloric target).. but I am trying to stay away from complex carbs (which I'm still not TOTALLY sure I know what ALL of these are).. Today, so far, I've eaten:

** 2 pcs of low carb/low cal wheat toast
** string cheese
** 6 inch Cold Cut Combo sub with mustard and tons of veggies
** half an apple (left over from kiddos lunches)
** a serving of Goldfish crackers (55 to be exact.. lol)
** two handfuls of grapes
** a mini-bagel

I'm considering this a good day so far.. I'd love to dive into a chocolate fountain right now, but I figure that's totally normal.. lol.. I am not sure why I have started to be introspective (right word?) about my weight loss (past and present), but I've noticed that I am a speed eater.. Honestly, I can eat a meal in 5 minutes flat.. I am usually the first one finished at a meal (unless it's with my dad)..

Dinner should be interesting.. something about Bison Steak, Gnocchi pasta and green beans.. and brown mushroom gravy.. I have no idea what it's gonna turn into, but it sounds kinda good.. We'll see..

Gotta stay at work tonight til 7pm, and I have to go to American Eagle for my mom, so I'm still debating over going to the gym or doing something at home (which we all know will prolly never happen.. lol).. so I'm more than likely going to try out my new ankle brace on the treadmill.. :)

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Thank you all so much for all your comments.. I saw some new "faces", and will check out their blogs later tonight.. The help was definitely encouraging and helpful.. I found out about different sites to try, and I will be looking at those prolly tomorrow morning (as I'm off work again!  yay!).. You all are wonderful.. ALL 88 OF YOU!  I'm amazed when I come on here and STILL find that people are finding my blog and following.. :)

Please help!

Okay, so I'm having a teeny crisis.. well, I say teeny, but it could make or break this weight loss journey I have been on..

So you all say I'm honest with you, so here's my honesty for the day.. I'm so tired, I'm moody, and I just ate a croissant!!  AND I LOVED EVERY BITE!!  I miss bread.. and the more I think about it, I'm not sure the Atkins plan is something I can do at this point in my life..

Atkins requires you to cook.. Right now, I am eating a lot of canned tuna, lunch meat (deli and pre-packaged), cheese, and canned STUFF (everything else I eat).. I don't cook!  I don't have the time to cook on my own.. I cook at my clients house (and that's prolly the only time I do), and my mom cooks stuff for me at random (like tonight I have a big steak waiting for me).. but that's not enough to make this healthy and work..

I am never home during the week.. Monday thru Friday afternoon, I basically sleep at home.. maybe veg out for about an hour or two.. that's it.. and I don't wanna spend my small amount of free time to cook.. then there's my short attention span.. I can't sit there making sure I'm not burning something by turning it every 5 minutes or whatever..

So where does this leave me???  I am NOT giving up.. Hell no!  That's not even an option, but I'm confused as to how I can do this.. not everyone else.. ME!  So this is where you all come in.. How do you lose weight?!  I know I read lots of blogs, but some of you all are strangers to me.. so please!  blurb away!  :)

I'm thinking about calorie counting and following a Atkins/WW inspired way of eating (high protein/low carbs/high veggies and fruit).. but I am afraid of not losing weight.. that's what this all boils down to.. What if I change this AGAIN, and I maintain..... or HELL, WHAT IF I GAIN!  AGH!!

Oh, and to those strangers I was talking about.. if I don't current follow you, or you are recently new, please leave me your blog address and I'll drop by (and more than likely follow you too!)  :)

xxoo

March Madness begins..

Alrighty, so as I'd said in a previous post, Katie over at FTTW/Are You Willing? has made her own March Madness bracket, and I'm in the South division.. :)

I hope you can see that, but I'll work on a up-close shot later today.. so it starts today!  I'm "up against" 5 other ladies this first week.. 

My official weigh in for this week is 224.4 lbs..

I'll be back later, of course.. :)  

The Kind-Hearted Blogger Campaign

So I'm annoyed by all the negativity that seems to be popping up in the blogosphere.. yeah, I know it's inevitable, but I don't have to accept it.. and neither do you.. I found this button on one of my newer followers sites, Future Fit Girl, and went to the site she got it off of, Em Jay & Me.. If you want to get the button, go here and put it up.. I think there've been tons of people that already have.. let's start a movement!  :)

Ready To Run..

Yep, I'm channeling my inner Dixie Chick (hehe, couldn't resist the tie-in), and looking into all the stuff for doing the 2012 Disney Princess Half Marathon next February..  and possibly all sorts of races between now and then..  I'm actually looking into doing the Disney Wine & Dine Half Marathon in October.. but I'm not sure I can come up with the registration fee in like 2 months..  It's $155, after April 17th.. but it's still on the options list.. :)

Until I figure THAT out, I plan to look into other races in the future that are closer to me.. start small, but start training for the half-marathon.. basically I want to use 5k's to see how I do on races.. or that's the idea right now.. lol.. who knows if it'll change after I do my first one.. ;)

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Okay, so as much as I love Anonymous (and if it's not the same person, then anonymousES), I would love it if they'd just let me know who they are.. Really?!  I'd never leave comments anonymously, because if I have the guts to say it, then I'm gonna leave my name..  So, there aren't any more anonymous comments allowed.. I turned them off (so to speak).. In regards to this last post, it wasn't necessarily negative.. but it's the fact that they seem to focus on the fact that I didn't let myself have ANY cookies.. Well, I let myself have 3 boxes of Girl Scout cookies over the past week.. I'm okay with that bc Girl Scout cookies aren't available 24/7.. but my mom's cookies are.. so I know that I will be able to eat them someday.. but my mom's cookies are like chips, you can't eat just one.. they are too yummy!  lol

I anticipate eating "off plan" every now and then.. that's life, and I plan to live life, not live on this plan.. but at this point in my weight loss, I am not okay with gaining 6 lbs.. once I get closer to goal, I MAY let myself be okay with gaining a few pounds here and there.. lol.. not likely, but like Justin Beiber says.. Never Say Never.. ;)

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Hope you all are liking my new look.. I was feeling very "punky princess"y.. lol.. I'm feeling quite musically inclined today.. can ya tell??  Well, I'm off to go catch up on some of my bloggy friends.. Hope you have a fabulous Sunday!  I know I am!  :)

Plans Are Being Made..

I am trying to hide from my kitchen right now, as my mom is in there making chocolate chip cookies (she didn't think I was doing the Induction until Monday).. so I'm resisting temptation.. I'd consider than a NSV.. So woohoo to me.. ;)

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I am currently looking into some things to amp up my game, so to speak.. I am going to be doing Vegan Chick Pea's St. Patrick's Day Virtual 5k on March 17th.. Seeing as I'm not a drinker, and drinking what I like isn't really "carb-friendly", so I'm doing my version of St. Patrick's Day.. March is definitely a different month for me.. all the Madness going around with basketball, doesn't affect me.. I actually hate hearing about all the teams, but more power to the ones that love it.. I just never got into college sports.. not sure why.. lol

But Katie over at FTTW/Are You Willing? is putting a twist on the March Madness bracket.. And I'm all in! Basically, she's putting everyone on a bracket, and we "win" by losing the biggest percentage of weight.. and the "winner" gets bragging rights.. which is awesome!  No entry fee, so feel free to go over and drop her a comment to get in on this action.. :)

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So I didn't get out to start running outside, but I did get some exercise in.. my cousin's left their XBOX 360 at my grandmother's house, with their Kinect, and I played Kinect Sports.. holy cow!  That is SO much better than any game I've played on the Wii.. seriously, I was sweating after like 5 minutes of beach volleyball.. plus, they play back the game you play afterwards.. it's hilarious to watch yourself!  lol

Well, I'm off to finish watching my DVR'd episodes of "Being Human".. :)

Momma Always Told Me..

Momma always told me that I could lose or gain 20 lbs so easy.. and boy, was she right again.. I gained 6lbs in the past 7 days.. holy cow!  Can you imagine?!  Holy cow!  So, no matter what, I am back on the program.. and NO, I am not calling it a diet, because it isn't a diet.. This is something I will have to live with, for the rest of my skinny life.. and I'm coming to realize that I'm okay with that.. because I can have my one hour a week to where I eat whatever "floats my rocker" as I like to say.. lol

I weighed in yesterday morning (but was too late to post) and was shocked to see that the scale said 224.0 lbs.. I actually re-weighed 3 times to make sure.. holy cow!  that's crazy!  and my plan is to do the Induction for the next two weeks and hopefully lose 15 lbs (get me under the 210 mark!!).. but I will be counting carbs like a mother f'er.. lol   :)

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So, I am off this weekend.. hopefully for the last time (I'm missing those nice paychecks already.. lol), and Chris is working WAY too much, so I'm on my own for the weekend I think.. So I'm planning to make my car mine, ya know what I mean?!  I'm gonna put my personal touch on my new vehicle.. and wash it!  lol.. and make my client some gluten-free goodies (that I have no inclination to eat/try), so I can get these damn Reese cups out of my house!  lol.. 

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I woke up this morning to find my debit card on my desk.. WTF?!  Where the hell did that come from!?  Gonna have to ask my dad where he found it, bc I'm pretty sure I scoured this whole damn house.. lol.. sorry about all the "potty-mouth-ness", but it's just called for in this situation.. 

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I went to the gym on Thursday, and realized that while I enjoy running, I need to start running on a daily (weekday) basis.. even if it's 10 minutes.. and I may just use this weekend to start running outside, seeing as it's SO nice out (well, compared to this past week).. but if I don't start this weekend, I definitely will be starting on Monday..

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How do you plan to spend your weekend??

Funny stuff..

So I just wanted to take some time out of today to thank you all for your goofy (and serious) comments on my last entry.. I appreciate the insight into other worlds of dating.. and while I will definitely take all of your comments into mind, I definitely think I will follow my instinct and just go with it.. :)

Today is my last day before I go back into the Induction phase of my diet.. I had sushi for lunch (YUMMY!  Oh, how I have honestly missed sushi) and bought a big can of Spaghetti-O's for dinner (for me and my dad, of course).. so I'm set until tomorrow morning.. I'm hoping to start taking breakfast with me to eat later in the day while my kiddos are eating their snack.. I just can't eat at 6am..

Last night, after I got off work, I went to the gym.. I went for two reasons: 1) to do some form of exercise and 2) to get my Girl Scout cookies from a friend.. Of course, he didn't have the cookies, so at least I got in my workout.. hehe.. I ended up going home because my 2 miles wore me out.. and I'm okay with that, for that day.. today, I hope to run a bit more (as I can breathe easier, but am coughing "better").. No Zumba class though, so it's just running and maybe some strength training..

Today has been interesting.. came to my clients house to find a window busted and P (the little girl) saying things like "tell it to the judge" and "you are going to jail".. found out from the momma that they are getting a divorce but my job isn't in jeopardy (yes, I was worried about BOTH things).. and then I got around to ordering/cancelling my debit card.. still can't find it, but at least I can rest easy that I won't have to worry about others racking up NSF fees (bc there certainly isn't any money for them to take.. lol)

Well, I'm off to finish laundry and cook dinner for my client.. :)  TTFN! 

Let's Play The Dating Game..

Alright, so I've held out as long as I possibly could.. lol.. so I've been dating this guy, Chris, for about 3 weeks (I've mentioned him a few times).. and I can honestly say that I'm totally confused as to what the rules are anymore for dating.. where is the 2010 version of The Dating Game when ya need it?!  Oh, I don't want to be the next Bachelorette or the next VH1 spinoff show.. I just want to know what the rules are to this damn game that I'm now playing..

Now, let me rewind a little and say that Chris is great.. I am not writing this entry to bitch about him, or anything of the sort.. I'm writing this to exclaim my confusion about dating in general.. And while I've been wondering this for a while (since before we started dating), I was worried that he'd read my blog (which he does.. hi, hun! lol), and get offended or whatever.. but hey, it's my blog, and I'm confused still.. so here I am!  :)

So, honestly, I've been confused for years.. I never was the type to date around.. I hate putting that much effort into ONE date not to have the possibility of at least one more in the near future.. lol.. I am a monogamous person, I was raised with that kind of thinking I guess.. but I didn't date in high school (looking back at pics, I can't really say I wanted to), and it took me a while in college to get into things.. but once I did, I had fun.. but I never really dated.. yeah, I dated a handful of guys here and there, but I can count on one hand how many boyfriends I've had..

But of course, they always ended.. some I was happy about (I did the breaking up) and some I was tore up about (one guy broke up with me over a text message.. swear to God).. I'm sure I am not the only one who, at the end of any relationship, wonders what went wrong/why you broke up/what you did wrong/etc.. and then ya move on..

I've been on several dates over the past few years.. mostly bad ones, some I'm still wondering WTF about.. lol.. but I can honestly say that I'm now in a place where I am actually loving myself enough to see that someone else could actually love me.. And please hold on to the "You are lovable" comments.. I know I am.. I just believe that if you don't love yourself, you can't expect anyone else to love you either.. 

Wow, this entry got WAY off track.. haha.. so back to basics, what are the damn rules now?!  Are things only official when they are on FB?  Who says those 3 words first?  Does it matter?  Who pays? And do you ever switch it up?  Oh, and the inevitable.. do guys REALLY expect a girl to put out on the first date now???