Well, I'm starting to wonder where my life is going.. and it isn't a pretty picture, so to speak.. I'm reading this book, "A Slice of Heaven" by Sherryl Woods.. The part that is inspiring this entry is where she's just had sex with her ex husband and is worried that he finds her fat, bc she thinks she is.. and high-tails it to the gym and finds a personal trainer.. then she says that she's doing it bc of her ex.. the trainer says that he'd rather she did it for herself.. and here's where I'm "inspired": she says that if she did it for herself, she'd have never came to the gym that day..
My motivation for this SHOULD be me.. but at this point, honestly, I don't think I'm worth the effort.. wait, before you send the outpour of love, hear me out.. Most of this journey has been half-assed.. and I'm sure you all agree.. and I've gained 2 more lbs this past week.. I need to look at losing weight as a job, aka something that I can't afford to call in to or miss.. even if it's just for strength training at my house.. I need to lose weight for the guy who will come into my life someday.. and will love the packaging as much as i do (bc right now, I hate my packaging)..
We all have motivation.. and some of you aren't doing this primarily for yourself.. maybe for your health, your kids, whatever.. and I don't think this makes us any different than people doing it for themselves.. we may need more therapy, but who doesn't need it anyways.. lol
btw, i am writing this entry from my new Droid 2.. YAY! So I apologize for any issues with spelling/spacing.. lol
I say, whatever gets you to the gym gets you there!
ReplyDeleteAs long as you aren't doing something UNHEALTHY for someone else who cares?
Here's to more therapy!!!! ;>
ReplyDeleteI second both above comments!! ;)
ReplyDeleteFind what gets you to the gym.. and dont stray! just keep that drive. If a new hot bod for a new guy works... then do it!!
I change my mind each week about why I am losing weight...sometimes it's because i dont want any health problems in the future, other times is so i can go on a beach without worrying that someone might think i'm a beach whale and harpoon me and other times it's because i want to achieve something in my life that i'm proud of and not give up on everything.
ReplyDeleteI guess the reason why I am losing weight is all of them put together but the motivation to make me continue is greater each week in a certain area.